I've finally decided to post, post A's and post Christmas. Its just that I had a few revelations these few days. 1. Colin is weird 2. Terence is a rare breed 3. Celle is really blur 4. Even when bald, the guys still don't look abnormal 5. I can spend a month at Kino and not get bored. Maybe even one year. 6. Mr Teo can cook 7. I've had (innocent) conversations with possibly the slimiest guy EVER and I didn't know (thanks lou- I mean I knew he wasn't good, but I didn't think he was that bad)
Today we had a class christmas party, and although I was dead with exhaustion, it was really fun. EVEN my exchange gift (it was a horse. more specifically a horse head and a stick) I have no idea what to do with it, so I'll just display it in my room, and take it out to play randomly.
I suddenly feel a rush of affection for our class. Loves 04.
Around 1 month and 2 days since I last wrote... I detest examinations. In fact, I have an Econs paper around 3 hours from now and I AM STILL SLACKING!!!! While I continue to have an internal debate about my apparent lack of motivation, I have decided on a few life-changing (at least for me) decisions that I am about to undertake after the A's.
1. Exercise everyday. or at least try to. 2. Take self-defence lessons. (inspired from my cousin's obsession with kungfu) 3. Attempt to clean my room
I shall continue to add on to this list whenever I find new inspiration.
Make It Happen [Movie] Plot: Indiana. XXX people, YYY miles from Chicago. NO DANCE SCHOOL. Girl tries to audition to Chicago School of Music and Dance but fails. Throw in some romance, some 'inner struggle' to hold onto dancing dream and bitch fights blah dee blah.
Dancing: What dancing? Jerking movements? Attempts to act sexy but fails miserably. Only saving grace = flexibility. Dancers out there, DO NOT watch this movie. The choreography and dancing is so bad and repetitive it is not even worth saying. [The girl does the same move over and over]Loads of hair throwing.
Saving Grace: Music. Cool song mixing and the beats are definitely dance-y. Especially the 2nd audition song. Fantastic.
Watch it if: You like watching close-up smooches and 'sexy' movements/jerks.
Its that time of the year again, where it seems like I'm in the middle of everything. Life, schoolwork, friends... and that you just stop and ponder, and realize that we have done nothing much. David Archuleta's 18, those Chinese gymnasts whose age although unconfirmed, is around 14-16, Michael Phelps' in his twenties and more... and they've achieved so much. I'm not content to live my life as an average, mundane person. I don't want to look back and regret about the 'maybes' and the 'would-have-beens'. I'm not saying that I need to go break a world record, or become a superstar. I just want to live life to my fullest potential and not just 'go with the flow' like every other person. Perhaps it is is unwise to think of such things, for people around me keep saying that I should give up everything for studies in this time of the year. However, I keep wondering what an average person would be thinking if they were lying on their deathbed with their family surrounding them. Would they be content with their life? The old folks have this constant saying that simplicity is a virtue, and that we should be content with what we have. Yes, its true. One should be content and not fall into the 'greed trap' but we have to progress too. Are we saying that once a beggar, forever a beggar just because they are content with their lives? Simple as it is?
Its the 'mugging' time again. A term so unique to our country. In Britain, mugging would probably mean getting robbed in the streets or something. Its the time of the year where I lose appetite because of studies. [I will never understand how people are able to gain weight because of studying] Its the time of the year when I look out my window and hope to see a red leaf fall, but instead being surrounded by greenery due to the absence of the change in seasons. Its the time of the year when I am reminded of the fact that if I was overseas, school would be starting soon and not ending.
One more paper to end of prelims but there are many more awaiting. I think teachers should teach their students not to mug, but to study for the sake of learning. I think that teachers should, instead of being relentless in the paper chase of the students, educate them about the joys of learning. I used to love studying. Now I can't stand the sight of it. Thanks so much.
Finally! The 2 weeks of crazy exam schedule is OVER.
For the past 2 weeks I had fever. flu. cough. a runny nose. fever. headache. etc. etc. and the symptoms kept changing. The worst I felt was during econs and math paper, where I had such a bad headache and a fever that I was slightly delirious during the exam.
My sis is moving to NTU's hostel tonight. Argh!! I can't borrow her stuff anymore! (but she can't borrow mine too!!) Soon she'll be starting a new chapter in her life. Something that I'll miss a lot on seeing that our already little time spent together will be even lesser. However, I guess its alright for I bet she'll have loads of fun while slog and mug my way to A's.
Sadly, I'm stuck in a society where the paper chase is so important that it greatly determines what we will be in the future.
I feel so depressed that I feel like eating the huge jellybean lollipop lying oh-so innocently on the table in front of me. But I must exercise restraint. For it is not mine, but a lolly that my cousin left in my house yesterday.
Sounds familiar? Writing this in with a bit of spare time that I managed squeeze out from my study timetable. Elections tomorrow and I'm experiencing so many conflicting emotions, each fighting to come out dominant. Had a wonderful time in wd. Love love love the exco and everyone. I hope the new batch will be even better than we were, bringing wd to greater heights.
Meeting my cousins again after years, I am so glad that I am able to have a conversation with them without any awkwardness. Its saddening, to know that they'd be leaving in less than a month's time and I won't know when I'll see them again. Unless, they'll be traveling with my family this dec holidays. I don't believe the saying that goes something like, you get closer to someone with time apart? I can't really remember. People cannot be compared to how you crave for food after not eating it for a very long time. Memories that should have been made aren't as we continue with our individual lives that has a 0.01% chance of crossing each other. Its depressing knowing that it is highly unlikely my cousins will live in Singapore, or that I will live in their country. Perhaps this difference will make our rare visits to each other more interesting with a larger range of topics to talk about; however, it also serves as a gap that we have to spend such a large amount of time trying to understand the polarity of our lives.
I just want to let you know..
Studying. Is that the only thing I can do right now? The things I sacrifice for my studies... is it worth it? To survive in a harsh and practical lifestyle like Singapore, is that the only viable road to choose? Pros of studying hard: Get a job that pays so I can buy the food I like whenever I want!! Cons of studying hard: Opportunity Cost!!!
Food wins. Hands down. I had tangyuan for dessert!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
