Seeking answers For questions which are often Left unanswered Or even ignored. Tears may slip From the place where it is usually Kept under control. Understanding The future's never certain Questioning why things often go wrong Inconsequential matters Are often those which are voiced. Shouting silently at the top of my lungs Lifting my head And hoping for a day. Praying that maybe My hidden wishes Will meet with a miracle. Hate bubbling beneath the surface Threatening to change A person into a harridan. With control held only By a single strand of faith. Perhaps like dawn, There'll be a flicker Of light and hope. All one has to do, Is to patiently wait.
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I'm plagued with questions, demands and alot of stuff. Its like a web, refusing to let me even attempt to find a way out, but I still have to try. Should I follow my heart or my parents. Should I do what I like or just do what needs to be done. I've always been the obedient child, so why are the rules placed upon me harsher than those on those less obedient? Maybe I'm not mature enough. Perhaps I need someone to guide me. But is this done through pressurizing and harsh debates? Realized that I don't understand many things makes me want to work harder. AND I'M TRYING. So why can't [they] see that? Despise going to places I used to love anymore. Am I rebelling? Or is this again explained by counsellors as a 'stage' that a teen has to go through. ARGH. During this period of time, I realized that I'm blinded by prejudice towards some people sometimes, and I'm really really sorry. I promise I'll forget those prejudices and befriend you for who you are. Looking back towards Butts Off, there are times when I feel so frustrated for none of the dancers are fully aware of the extent of the problems that we had. To relieve some of it, I shouted at times and I'm truly apologetic. I'm not usually like that and I'll make an effort to learn how to control my emotions. Dance camp was a blast. Dan's contemporary practices are really fun! And therefore the multi-million dollar question: TO CONTEMP OR NOT TO CONTEMP --
Three of my favourite songs. Please listen to the lyrics and hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
Sunday, November 25, 2007