Had a lesson with Michelle from S.Y.T.Y.C.D. season 1!!!!! I think she's beautiful. She dances well, is really funny and she's a really nice person. I learned alot. haha. Specially on the swiveling hips part. Actually I felt super awkward. I wasn't comfortable with my body for I felt that I was too thin (no muscles), was one of the tallest (even though I'm considered really short already) etc. etc. Therefore, since I can't do much about my height, all I can do is to exercise and gain some muscles.
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As I've been dancing every single day (except Sundays) with the same group of people ever since Promos ended, I have found out certain things about them.
1. Tis has uncontrollable laughter that its just hilarious watching her.
2. Tis' sense of humour is weird. She laughs at the most random stuff and this was further confirmed as I remember that she laughed when in a movie THE CRUCIBLE, John Proctor died.
3. Rachel is seriously very cute
4. Rachel is also very very hardworking.
5. Priya's giggles = contagious
6. Priya is my twin -->same birthday -->same dislike for mayo -->green nails! -->and more...
7. Calvin is an a**hole, and he is living in denial that he is not a homosexual. haha!
8. Calvin derives sadistic pleasure from fake bashing people up and a secretly skilled manipulator.
9. Sophia = SO HEALTHY. Who uses tissue to wipe away the oil on the prata!?!? haha!
10. Sophia likes to touch people. Evidence from how she'll poke everyone.
11. Sophia is also my beloved food provider!
12. Zhangfan is crazy about emo and when he gets frustrated, bangs his body on the floor doing some crazy breakdancing move.
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EMO POST ALERT FOR I NEED TO GET SOME STUFF OFF MY CHEST SO DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WISH TO RUIN YOUR DAY.
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Honestly speaking I hate shouting at people for I cannot stand confrontations. So sometimes I really hate myself for shouting at the Butts Off dancers to shut up or practice. There are times when I feel that because I'm required to maintain some kind of image during dance (like not being too slack and kind of strict) I feel that I'm wearing some sort of mask. The way I act at home, dance and school's different from each other, and the one that I act most 'ab-normally' is during dance practice. Ok. I admit that its not always a facade, for there are times when I act like myself. However, those times when I act like myself is usually when we're resting or having some eating session with the dancers or helping them one-by-one.
I really wish to be in Danceworks '08, and I am trying my best to improve myself for it without sacrificing my studies. However, my parents' wish for me to not be so involved in dance have been an increasingly heated discussion among us, often ending up with my submitting or with no conclusion for one of us would walk away. However, I know studies are more important for its highly unlikely (actually improbable) that I'd have a career in dance despite how much I love it.
I am really thankful for the people around me, even though for some of them I rarely see them since its the hols. For example, I saw Nat this morning in school and I was really really happy. Tis is the person that I sort of depend on during dance, for she keeps me sane (no matter how shocking this may be) and helps me correct the steps for the other guys. Mel is a wonderful person, reminding me about work, Reg for her constant support and many many more people.
This thanking thing actually have to be extended to my 2 wonderful siblings, even though the older one has the A's, but other sisterly talks with each other helps relieve alot of the stress that's building up inside. I'm seriously very very stressed. Coping with pressure at home, school and those that I place upon myself. It has escalated to the stage that I can't even fall asleep without worrying about something and that I rarely have appetite, considering that I love food... that's saying something. My arm is hurting like crazy at random times, and at some points I've had to grit my teeth to stop screaming while I'm dancing. I wish to get in the top3. No. Make that a want or even better, a need. However, as all dancers should know, training isn't everything that will allow you to reach your goal, and the best we can do is to just give our best. I can only practice alone to improve my steps since whenever I'm with the rest of the team, I end up being the one who oversees and corrects mistakes. I hope I don't bring the the whole Butts Off team down. After making you guys go through such gruelling training, I have mixed feelings for each and everyone of you. (though I highly doubt most of you would be reading this post.. or even come to this emo session)
I don't think my stress is visible to anyone except my younger mei mei, whom I love super duper much. Her occasional childishness and temper always brightens up my day whether she is beating me up or hugging me.
Thursday, November 15, 2007