earth in my eyes

2008-12-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

I've finally decided to post, post A's and post Christmas.
Its just that I had a few revelations these few days.
1. Colin is weird
2. Terence is a rare breed
3. Celle is really blur
4. Even when bald, the guys still don't look abnormal
5. I can spend a month at Kino and not get bored. Maybe even one year.
6. Mr Teo can cook
7. I've had (innocent) conversations with possibly the slimiest guy EVER and I didn't know (thanks lou- I mean I knew he wasn't good, but I didn't think he was that bad)

Today we had a class christmas party, and although I was dead with exhaustion, it was really fun. EVEN my exchange gift (it was a horse. more specifically a horse head and a stick)
I have no idea what to do with it, so I'll just display it in my room, and take it out to play randomly.

I suddenly feel a rush of affection for our class. Loves 04.

I am slacking

2008-11-12T10:23:00.002+08:00

Around 1 month and 2 days since I last wrote...
I detest examinations.
In fact, I have an Econs paper around 3 hours from now and I AM STILL SLACKING!!!!
While I continue to have an internal debate about my apparent lack of motivation, I have decided on a few life-changing (at least for me) decisions that I am about to undertake after the A's.

1. Exercise everyday. or at least try to.
2. Take self-defence lessons. (inspired from my cousin's obsession with kungfu)
3. Attempt to clean my room

I shall continue to add on to this list whenever I find new inspiration.

Thou shalt not stress.

Make It Happen

2008-09-10T18:19:00.003+08:00

Make It Happen [Movie]

Plot: Indiana. XXX people, YYY miles from Chicago. NO DANCE SCHOOL. Girl tries to audition to Chicago School of Music and Dance but fails. Throw in some romance, some 'inner struggle' to hold onto dancing dream and bitch fights blah dee blah.

Dancing: What dancing? Jerking movements? Attempts to act sexy but fails miserably. Only saving grace = flexibility. Dancers out there, DO NOT watch this movie. The choreography and dancing is so bad and repetitive it is not even worth saying. [The girl does the same move over and over]Loads of hair throwing.

Saving Grace: Music. Cool song mixing and the beats are definitely dance-y. Especially the 2nd audition song. Fantastic.

Watch it if: You like watching close-up smooches and 'sexy' movements/jerks.

Overall: 0.5/5 Stars

annoyed at the amount of time I've wasted.

No.1

2008-09-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

Its that time of the year again, where it seems like I'm in the middle of everything. Life, schoolwork, friends... and that you just stop and ponder, and realize that we have done nothing much.
David Archuleta's 18, those Chinese gymnasts whose age although unconfirmed, is around 14-16, Michael Phelps' in his twenties and more... and they've achieved so much. I'm not content to live my life as an average, mundane person. I don't want to look back and regret about the 'maybes' and the 'would-have-beens'. I'm not saying that I need to go break a world record, or become a superstar. I just want to live life to my fullest potential and not just 'go with the flow' like every other person.
Perhaps it is is unwise to think of such things, for people around me keep saying that I should give up everything for studies in this time of the year. However, I keep wondering what an average person would be thinking if they were lying on their deathbed with their family surrounding them. Would they be content with their life?
The old folks have this constant saying that simplicity is a virtue, and that we should be content with what we have. Yes, its true. One should be content and not fall into the 'greed trap' but we have to progress too. Are we saying that once a beggar, forever a beggar just because they are content with their lives? Simple as it is?

Its the 'mugging' time again. A term so unique to our country. In Britain, mugging would probably mean getting robbed in the streets or something. Its the time of the year where I lose appetite because of studies. [I will never understand how people are able to gain weight because of studying] Its the time of the year when I look out my window and hope to see a red leaf fall, but instead being surrounded by greenery due to the absence of the change in seasons. Its the time of the year when I am reminded of the fact that if I was overseas, school would be starting soon and not ending.

One more paper to end of prelims but there are many more awaiting. I think teachers should teach their students not to mug, but to study for the sake of learning. I think that teachers should, instead of being relentless in the paper chase of the students, educate them about the joys of learning. I used to love studying. Now I can't stand the sight of it. Thanks so much.

To sum it all up

2008-08-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

Finally! The 2 weeks of crazy exam schedule is OVER.

For the past 2 weeks I had fever. flu. cough. a runny nose. fever. headache. etc. etc. and the symptoms kept changing.
The worst I felt was during econs and math paper, where I had such a bad headache and a fever that I was slightly delirious during the exam.

What life.

'That Person' said that it was because of stress.

Is it really?

12 DAYS TO MUG FOR CHEM.

Oh joy.

Arrivederci, Ci Vediamo a Dopo

2008-08-03T18:30:00.003+08:00

My sis is moving to NTU's hostel tonight.
Argh!! I can't borrow her stuff anymore! (but she can't borrow mine too!!)
Soon she'll be starting a new chapter in her life. Something that I'll miss a lot on seeing that our already little time spent together will be even lesser. However, I guess its alright for I bet she'll have loads of fun while slog and mug my way to A's.

Sadly, I'm stuck in a society where the paper chase is so important that it greatly determines what we will be in the future.

I feel so depressed that I feel like eating the huge jellybean lollipop lying oh-so innocently on the table in front of me. But I must exercise restraint. For it is not mine, but a lolly that my cousin left in my house yesterday.

Jordin Sparks-One Step At A Time

Love the lyrics!

Oh. SYTYCD Season 4!!!!!
I like Katee and Josh.

HomeTown Glory-Choreographed by Mia Michaels

All By Myself-Choreographed by Tyce Diorio

With love, from...

2008-07-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

Sounds familiar?
Writing this in with a bit of spare time that I managed squeeze out from my study timetable. Elections tomorrow and I'm experiencing so many conflicting emotions, each fighting to come out dominant. Had a wonderful time in wd. Love love love the exco and everyone. I hope the new batch will be even better than we were, bringing wd to greater heights.

Meeting my cousins again after years, I am so glad that I am able to have a conversation with them without any awkwardness. Its saddening, to know that they'd be leaving in less than a month's time and I won't know when I'll see them again. Unless, they'll be traveling with my family this dec holidays. I don't believe the saying that goes something like, you get closer to someone with time apart? I can't really remember. People cannot be compared to how you crave for food after not eating it for a very long time. Memories that should have been made aren't as we continue with our individual lives that has a 0.01% chance of crossing each other.
Its depressing knowing that it is highly unlikely my cousins will live in Singapore, or that I will live in their country.
Perhaps this difference will make our rare visits to each other more interesting with a larger range of topics to talk about; however, it also serves as a gap that we have to spend such a large amount of time trying to understand the polarity of our lives.

I just want to let you know..

Studying. Is that the only thing I can do right now? The things I sacrifice for my studies... is it worth it? To survive in a harsh and practical lifestyle like Singapore, is that the only viable road to choose?
Pros of studying hard: Get a job that pays so I can buy the food I like whenever I want!!
Cons of studying hard: Opportunity Cost!!!

Food wins. Hands down.
I had tangyuan for dessert!

2008-07-12T14:58:00.001+08:00

Train-Drops of Jupiter

Dedicated to Nala

2008-07-08T23:46:00.005+08:00

Q: Why is this post dedicated to Nala?

Ans: Because I ~~was~~ am bored.

In case you didn't realize, Nala's far left, then it is Zazu and SIMBA!

P.S Nala? Where's your Simba?

To those who are still clueless on what I'm talking about, Nala is the person known from the link from my blog as 'The Hot Dancer'. Was thinking of calling her cub (as in lion cub, not bear) because I like her hair! But I soon had this 'epiphany' to call her Nala instead!

Dearest Nala,
I was trying to do gp when I thought of disney-->lion
king-->simba-->you. However, please rest assured that no blame will be put on you if I am unable to complete my gp homework. This is because I'm stuck. Plus the fact that I'm bored.
Oh well.
Night Nala!
Your friend.

Pigs

2008-06-29T22:15:00.005+08:00

I'm stuck.
I have no idea how to continue my history essay on SEA economy and whatisnots..
The words are just not.. flowing.

I've been listening to malay songs because I'm sick and tired of chinese, english, jap, korean and the rest. Have you heard Vanessa Hudgen's new song??
argh.

Too much pink.

Vanessa Hudgens - Sneakernight

My sister went to Penang a few hours ago with my aunts and nana to shop. She said we'll share the stuff she buys.
Such a nice sister right?!?!
NOT.
She's going to a hostel for uni, and she laughed and said that I can go to her hostel every week to borrow clothes.
I don't need new clothes. Hmph. Even if it becomes frayed and tattered. The worse it can get is... for me to go shopping myself even though I dislike it muchly.

Sigh. The essay beckons. If I can get a good review of it... Pigs'll fly.

...

2008-06-24T20:04:00.002+08:00

Have PE lessons. again. With scary teacher.
PE used to be my favourite time of the day. Now, I just hate it. The teachers and the entire environment are just so dead. With no enthusiasm, plus the bad memories of forcing upon us loads of training just so that we can do well for Napfa and not let the school's name down...

I hate PE.

Club Med

2008-06-23T21:44:00.008+08:00

In 4 days, I've went windsurfing, kayaking, snorkeling, diving, sailing and more and I've changed to brown! (so glad its not black!)

I really want to work in Club Med next time! They always seem to have a great time and they have buffets available almost 24/7!!! I AM NOT KIDDING.

And they have Jap/Korean/Chinese/Western/Indonesian etc. food served PLUS a dessert table and salad bar!!!!
WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR?!?!?!?!

But then again, this Thai 'hot' dude instructor (my mum and aunts think he's hot..) told my family that their pay is low, they have super crammed rooms to sleep in at night PLUS you only get around 5 hrs of sleep a day.
That's sad.
Oh well, but he's only there because he wants to learn club management skills and apparently Club Med is very VERY good in branding.
But still, facing that wonderful beach and seeing new people come and go is so fun!

Back to school. CT results were absolute crap. Facing end of term in exco.. (I love zong's garlic!) and I start A's on 31 OCTOBER!!!

How unlucky can I be??
Plus, 4 consecutive days of papers, one of which has a 2 papers in 1DAY!

At least I'm one of the earliest who will finish the A's.
14NOVEMBER!! WAIT FOR ME!

I miss dance terribly.

Back from Bintan

2008-06-19T20:21:00.004+08:00

I am this...

...

colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

which will soon turn to this....

..

colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
colourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolourcolour
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

give me time to calm myself down.

I'm so glad it was us

2008-06-06T00:28:00.003+08:00

To my dearest excos,
To ~~reg and shining's~~ unglam moments
To food-ing
To 'talking'
To helping each other
To mugging
To stressing
To having great fun
To working
To all the little things that we did together.

Love you all!

I dedicate...

MUFFINS TO ALL OF YOU!!
---

I ate till my tummy hurts...

It will NOT be the END

2008-06-04T22:16:00.005+08:00

Super happy.

IT was so fun!!!

aye-arr-eye-ass-tee-aye-elle was the best!

I think out of the 3 that I've performed in, wd's performance was definitely the best this year!

SO many people said they loved loved our items! Especially seniors and gn!!!

Even though I only participated in one item this year(as compared to last year in which I participated in 3 -I wanted to kill myself... I know...), it being one of the most memorable made the experience even more exciting!!

REALLY HOPE I CAN DANCE NEXT YEAR.

Thank you jo, celle-the-one-with-crutches, mer, nat, jiayi, enqin, jiafang, kim, the guys and many more who came down for this performance.

Thanks to all the dancers who I know put in so much effort in each item, especially wd of course! (I'm a bit biased. haha!)

Thanks especially to those in seniors, making practice so much fun and crazy! Loved the eating sessions (my blessed angels who provided food!!!!) Rachchew, jiateng, calvin, tis, jamie, zhangfan, serene, eunice, aiwei, wanzhen, gimlim

AND THE MOST IMPORTANT,

WDEXCO!!!

Despite everything, it turned out fantabulastically great! Thanks for all the encouragement and the helping to making our items wonderful!

on a side note, I love our shirts!

Streetfest is next. argh!! 2 more days!!! Really hope that we do a good job, if not a great one! Hope I wasn't really fierce. I don't think I was that strict as compared to buttsoff (hey, that was a competition!), but I hope the juniors are ok with it.

Oh well.

Dance term coming to an end.

Don't really want to think about it so I shall just mug now.

Need to do well for A's if not all I have is my kindergarten graduation certificate...

G*** shizz

2008-05-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

Why can't people )(*#@ stop messing with my stuff?!?!?!

Why can't people )($T)*$* just keep their )#()$(%T hands to themselves?!?!?!

damned pissed.
someone used my bag, with my hat in it, and now my #@*($ is gone.

stupid piece of shizz.

Its not fair

2008-05-25T00:37:00.005+08:00

It's not fair.

PZR can upload cool videos on his ipod and I can't.

whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy?????

It's not fair.

My com is always so screwed up.

It's not fair.

I can't go for dance practices some times.

---
After dance went to orchard to buy costumes for aristal! GOT A SHIRT!
One thing off my mind, but I am so so so bad at shopping. After a while my back starts hurting and my legs are aching and I was craving for a shoe shop so I could sit down. Andrea was laughing at me... But I'm indebted to her for she is going to get me my coolioz punk rocker thing!!
Then had a meeting today until like 10+pm @ Lido.
And it was so embarassing for I got lost on my way there.
Or to be more accurate, I always ended up at the wrong side of the crossroads walking in the underpass.
I tell you that the path moves (like the stairs in Hogwarts), which is the reason why I can't walk to my intended space.
...
Or perhaps I should go out more often.

Heard Harmoc playing some really nice songs today. Wondered if Gladys was there but didn't see her.
Saw a few people for the first time in a long long while during dance.

I'm so glad that Aristal is coming and I managed to be part of it!
However, my stamina has become so bad that just dancing for 1minute and I am panting for air and my heart beats like a 'choo-choo' train. ARGH. Despite that, I'm glad PE's over due to the fact that THERE'S NO MORE NAPFA!!

Lets all put in our 10000000%!!!

---

SUPER EXCITED AND I'VE DECIDED TO START COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS TILL A'S ARE OVER!!!!!!!
WHOO!
MY LIFE WILL BE SOOOOO GOOD WHEN IT FINALLY IS OVER!

at least until uni.

want to watch prince caspian (my parents said indiana was so-so... see mel!!)
want to finish choreo-ing streetfest.
wants aristal to be fantabulistic!
misses my class loads.

Common what??

2008-05-22T22:42:00.005+08:00

CTs are finally OVER!!!
Aristal's next week!!!

*jumps with joy*

Today we had a class outing, which was supposedly to have dinner with Mr LWC, but he couldn't make it so...

Probably the last class outing until after A's.

Gladys and I are so jinxed.

It ALWAYS happens when the two of us are together.

WHY???

A long long time ago, Gladys and I decided to go to the washroom, and at that point in time, we were at CitiLink (did I spell it correctly?). Whilst we were laughing and talking, we walked down this 'corridor' with sinks at the side, where there were quite a couple of guys washing their hands.

Then we turned the corner.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

WE SAW URINALS AND A COUPLE OF GUYS P**ING!!!!!!

I was so shocked and horrified and Gladys and I ran out of the area for we had unknowningly walked into ..........

THE GUY'S TOILET.

I was never so embarassed in my entire life.

As the 'Ladies' door was closed (which was the same colour as the wall) and the sign being excruciatingly mini [go see a picture of it in Gladys' blog], coupled with the fact that the male washrooms door was open and it was a straight pathway leading towards it, Gladys and I had an experience never to be forgotten.

...

BUT.

WHY WERE THE GUYS WHO WERE STARING AT US WHEN WE WENT IN SO... 'HAPPILY' NOT SAY ANYTHING?!??!??!?!

So embarassing!!

And it nearly happened again today.

Gladys and I.

Walking to the washrooms.

However, we did enter the right one, it was just that when we walked out, we made a wrong turn and headed towards the gents...

Lucky we realized it early...

Gladys... we are so jinxed!!

hahaha.

go to gladys' blog @ http://www.pinkfurrypencilcase.blogspot.com/ for her story.

loves 04!

Oh the Horror

2008-04-29T23:08:00.006+08:00

www.chron.com
...

The REAL terror of a student - Common Test in less than 2 weeks. And counting.

I'm so happy yeah

2008-04-15T22:38:00.004+08:00

NAPFA

IS

O.
V.
E.
R.

over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over. over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over. over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.over.

wait.

did I forget to mention that NAPFA is over????

Since PE was my first lesson on monday, despite the fact that I slept at 3am and woke up at around 5+, I was awake the ENTIRE day.

Why?

Because I was soooo glad that NAPFA is over!

YAYAYAYAYAY.

not that I do badly at NAPFA, but I don't really like doing all the stuff we have to do. Say for example...... 2.4km run.
But oh well. Record kept so I'm fine with everything.

---

ARISTAL IS ON THE 30TH OF MAY!

2008-04-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

YATTA!!!!

FINALLY DANCING AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-03T19:03:00.002+08:00

So You Think You Can Dance - Austrailia
Jemma & Rhys Waltz

Vanessa & Jack Contemporary

KAte & Graeme Contemporary

---

Just For Laughs

Whose Line Is It Anyway - Lets Make A Date

Good to be back

2008-03-19T22:07:00.003+08:00

Humanities Trip was so FUN!!!!

04 girls rule.

Will post photos when I finally get the time to get them out of my camera. (sorry Peixin)

Details later. I'm just so dead tired after 3 hours of Math.

--

Not doing Aristal.
Really sorry. Especially to GL, TL, RL and XC
I'll try my best but... don't get your hopes up k?

argh.

A'S ARE COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It will NOT be the END

2008-03-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

Something in my life has ended.
Something which made me experience an emotion so horrible that it is spurring me to work much harder than before just for the sake of avoiding that feeling.
I just wanted to say I love fodding.
I love the fod-ders.
More than I love food.

Thank you.
To SW and CT
To Twin, HT, WZ
To CM, JC, AC, SL, LL, RC, CL, ZF
To RL, SN, JA and more

---

Anybody wants tickets to St Nick's Fiesta??
-I can't believe I'm helping to promote tickets to a secondary school not my own. I think I pamper my younger sis too much-

---

VIETNAM!!!!!!!

CAMBODIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YATTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More Crap

2008-02-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

History Sem!!
Quite fun, loved those little puffs they gave us to eat!
Best Role-Play!
Happy for we managed to get one out of three awards. Although the poster is a tad ______. Haha!

Thanks especially to Mel, Jo, Mel's sister, Ms Oon and Ms Lim, the rest of the History Sem people, Jia Fang and more!

--

Went for a talk about overseas university application today. Was a bit demoralized. Jo Lynn and I felt that we needed to beg or go homeless.

Ask our parents to kick us out and I shall stay at the construction site next to our school. Will have service with honour for I'll put brick upon brick for the new building
-jolynn

We need a sob story! Or something to make our lives appear more interesting seeing that mine only revolves around family, cca and school!!

--

Being pretentious is not a good trait.

Fod Off

2008-02-27T00:11:00.002+08:00

Because I feel absolute crap, I can emo all I want.

.

.

.

I really was reconsidering how I viewed you, but I was so disappointed. Even though it hurt for a while, thank goodness dance made me forget and be happy again.

--

Anyway, after that disappointment, and when my feelings were feeling perky again, I had to realize something that made me sad.
Although, I personally think that 'sad' is not exactly the right word to describe how I felt. Therefore, I kind of wanted to start a research, analyzing the inadequacies of words to express emotions and how to identify them.
This is with the knowledge that despite everything we experience is due to chemical changes in our body, I wish to figure out the emotions in the 'arts' POV.

---

5 DAYS TO GO

For The Sake of Fodding

2008-02-14T23:16:00.003+08:00

1. Be Optimistic

2. Work Hard

3. Play Hard

4. Victor's mentality

5. WE CAN AND WILL DO IT!!!!!!!!!

That Time of The Year.. Again

2008-02-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

Dearest Jade-d and I have set up a club.
Its called the "Heck Care About V-Day Club!!!!"

The only wonderful thing about V-Day is the food! [I am not food crazy Kang Ming!] Seeing how I do not exactly fancy pink and all the lovey-dovey heart shaped things... I don't see why it is a day where many people around all go around goo-ing and gaa-ing. I don't think my cynicism stems from the lack of someone to spend it with, for I have so many people I love around me. Why must the declaration of love, be it friendly or otherwise, be only done on that day? Spontaneity is best I believe.

But I guess there is something to look forward to this V-Day. One of which is my uncle's birthday. Cake Alert!

Economics test tomorrow and I've just finished revising my notes. Had to rant about something so disgusting that I saw on the bus. 2 people making out in front of me. What made it more gross was that it was a crowded bus! It totally disturbed me since I was embracing my 'inner mugger spirit' and studying for Econs on the ride home. And when I took a break to rest my eyes... My eyes are scarred.

Oh well. It's nearing V-Day! Blame everything on the half-dressed invisible cupids floating around! Whoo!
...
...
I just hope I do not get nightmares.

X-brother is my saviour! Mer too!

I totally forgot about CCA today and those two wonderful people came to my rescue.

Anyway, I was reading my previous posts and I remember why I said Magnus was an a**hole!!! Because he kept teasing about me and *cough*!!!!! ARGH!! I get angry even thinking about it now!! Haha.

You're Special

2008-02-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG.

EVERYBODY HAS BEEN LYING TO ME SINCE GOD KNOWS WHEN. AND I ~~WAS~~ AM RIGHT.

I AM ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE AT DANCING.

After watching the video of us practicing, I was so SO shocked. Wait. That's kind of an UNDERSTATEMENT. Have I always been dancing like that?!?!?!?!
OH I'M SO GOING TO BRING FOD DOWN. WHICH I CAN'T AFFORD TO!!

Guess this means I've got to keep practicing non-stop till I correct every single mistake I made.

---

Chinese New Year = hong bao + NEW YEAR COOKIES!!!!
I think I may love the goodies more than the money. However, my mum has been telling me that I've been eating too much. I am so depressed now. So I guess I will just eat the 3 main meals daily, forgoing my breaks, teatime, supper etc. etc.

....

....

I don't like shopping that much, but I HAVE NO NEW CLOTHES! Except for the dress that my aunt bought for me on my birthday, which I would probably not wear out EVER. But I guess I do not really have a choice here.
I think I need to learn to like shopping.

On a more serious note, the Communist Revolution in China is so messy that I do not really know how to write the script for the play for History Seminar. Mugging during the holidays yet again.

My Current Favourite Song: So Close by Jon McLaughlin

What Life?

2008-02-02T16:20:00.001+08:00

This is the story about someone whose life only revolves around family, school and dance.

It was a cloudy day, and X was dancing yet again. Dance, mug, sleep and eat. That's all X does. One day, when X was going home after dance, J messaged her and asked her whether she was free. Yet again, X apologized and said she was really busy with many stuff on her hands. J then told X that she has no life and that she is always busy with something. Sorry J, but I think X feels that dance has to come first. Sometimes so much so that X has to study doubly late into the night so that she wouldn't be behind in her work.

--

Went for lunch and 'Ke Ai Ji' with SW, Magnus, Zong, Xiaobai, Sophia and Jamie, and we had so much fun talking crap. Although I feel kind of guilty now so I shan't say much about what we talked about.
Strained my right butt today! Haha. Hurt quite a bit till I could not do full out at all. I'm really sorry.
Got drenched in the rain, eating a second lunch with my parents...

I'm going to become a pig!!!!@#()%@

Videos!

Japan Dance Delight - G'old

Yoshie

BoA- Do The Motion

They dance with a cane!

---

I confess. I went blog surfing to waste time. Argh.
But anyway, I saw quite a few things that I wish I'll never ever see again. Say for example, photos of me on Mel and Tis' blog *cough*.
Missing the 04 people so so much. Its like my life doesn't really include you guys anymore. Miss the times where Mel calls us her nehneh's and how we would dedicate songs to each other for the fun of it.
Still love you guys loads though. I'll try to not be such a loner.

On a happier note, VACATION IS COMING!!
[Let's just ignore the impending assignments and exams after CNY]

Putting Things into Perspective

2008-01-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

On the car ride home, listening to Gold 90fm, and this ridiculous song was aired. The lyrics went something like..
The girl sings: "I'm a one man woman"
And the guy goes: "But I'm a two timing man"

What the?!?

It was so hilarious, more so when my dad knew the lyrics to the song!
However, I can't say much about the singers of our generation too. Listen to the lyrics of Gold-digger. I think its by 50 cent.

--

Dear S
I hope you find the strength in yourself
To continue on with life.
Even though she isn't there anymore,
She'll always be looking over you.
Please don't stress yourself
And talk to me alright?

--

Leukaemia is something frightening and not as far away as we believe it to be.

Just want to dance and dance and dance and dance and dance.

Giving Up

2008-01-26T18:54:00.000+08:00

Oh my 'tian'. I give up. I'll join Facebook like the millions and billions of people around the world.
Reason?
I need to check out some pictures that my friends from Italy is posting. But I don't think I'll add friends or anything. Unless they do so. Oh well.

I have NO LIFE

2008-01-25T00:10:00.001+08:00

PE was tiring. REALLY TIRING. Ran 2.4 and I deproved. Barely went below 1130.
ARGH.
I HATE RUNNING!!! Hmm. Is this a dance thing?
What's more, was that the PE teacher offered to help improve our standards by asking us to come down on Thurs to run. I should stop whinging. That I know. My PE teacher is really nice, its just that I do not exactly fancy running.

Anyway, I am annoyed AGAIN! [big surprise? no?] This is all because of s***** possum. Wanted to go for chem, but I forgot to bring my timetable [my fault I know]. Anyway possum, even though he went for lunch with mel and I, didn't want to tell me our venue for chem. WTBBQ!

Thankfully I had the presence of mind to try to reach class 15 mins before it started. BUT NO!!!! Because I had no idea where it was, and most people did not have lunch before Chem and were in some class... I spent 10++ mins walking up and down the stairs.
ALL BECAUSE OF S***** POSSUM.

WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST TELL ME THE VENUE?!?! ITS NOT AS IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW!!!

... I will never ever not bring my timetable AGAIN.

Since I had tuition, kind of did math for around 4.5 hrs non-stop. Did not even eat dinner 'til around 2230. Now, I should be doing GP AQ, but I needed a rest.

I hope I dream of cranberries. Yum Yum. And I think I need to stop being so easily bribed - by food.

KangMing! Don't you dare forget about my waffles!

Fodding My Life Away

2008-01-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

I am super pissed.
What the hell is wrong with people?!?!
Doesn't anyone understand that I DON'T FREAKING WANT MY ADD TO BE ADDED ON TO THE LIST IN OTHER PEOPLE'S BLOGS?!?!
Don't make me change blogs again.

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On the happier note, dance practice was quite fun, however, I was doing it in pain for a have a strained muscle in my right leg. It is quite painful to move about in. Also, catch-phrases for our Faculty of Dance shirts are finalized!

As I was so bored today and had nothing much to do, went to sit in for Econs remedial. Good thing that it actually helped me quite a bit. The only problem being that I can only have lunch at 3+.

Was blog surfing for a while, and saw Mel's blog!
Look what I found!

What Should You Have Done After High School?
	You should have traveled the world. You're outgoing and you like to try new things. You'd do great in a college environment, but you won't be able to focus on school until you fulfill your inner desires to get out and see the world.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

SO SO TRUE. Except maybe for the outgoing part. I'm only outgoing with people I'm comfortable with.

Oh well. Its time to take a bath.

Dance

2008-01-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

10 and 12. They are just numbers to me. I don't understand how some people can be cold and unfeeling, when I just feel so empty. I'm not going to pity anyone, for I hate it when people pity me.
Just know that I'll always be there for you guys k?

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I really need to thank zong, reg, magnus, rach.chew, x-brother, priya and xiaobai for being there for me. I know I can be kind of crazy and stuff, but having you all around really makes my days more fun.

Dancing is tiring. It requires alot of time and effort. What's the point of just signing up for something if you know that you may not be able to do/cope with it? It was your decision, so bloody well stick with it.

If I sound kind of irritated, I think its partly due to the EXCESSIVE INTAKE of Macdonalds.
After performing for the charity concert thing in school, we went to KAP yet AGAIN. What was worse was that we wanted to get a bite at KFC, but it was about to close.
How annoying.

But, that is not the point. The point is that I am eating way too much unhealthy food!!!!

FAM!!?!?!

I need good and healthy food!!!

I just caught a beetle and I don't know what to do with it!!!! Its like trapped under some random cup I found. Eeuch.

Rule the world

2008-01-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

Take That Rule The World Lyrics

To all the 04 girls for brightening up my day, to all xfresh-ers, and F.O.D people!

There are so many people who are scared of contemp practices. And just because of that, they wish to quit the cca? Shouldn't they be more inspired to overcome this 'obstacle'?? What's the point of giving up so easily?!?!
Had full dress rehearsal yesterday, and it ended up me not talking to magnus and zhang. Why? Not telling. Ask them yourself. Then we played a game where I ended up doing this dare: poking a random stranger and laugh evilly. haha! I failed miserably for the laughing thing, cause it was just too hilarious and I couldn't make it sound 'evil' enough.

After rehearsal, went to KAP AGAIN, and saw wilbert.tedja, colin.ee, 'yinsheng', ern.est... Reg and I shared CURLY FRIES!!! Yes.. I know that they are carcinogenic. I really need to stop eating fast food. Its so unhealthy!

Revelations for today!!

1. RADIO AND STEREO ARE ANNOYING
2. Exco meetings are fun!
3. SEA.Hist is so tiring and tough!
4. No one should wear socks with holes in them
5. Vectors = TOUGH
6. GL, although sometimes a tad annoying with the 'untying shoelace thing' (no offence gl..haha), can be so wonderful. He saved my life by giving me FOOD when I was so exhausted from running.
7. My stamina has dropped dropped dropped...
8. I don't like ironing much.
9. Sleeping whenever you are free is GOOD!

Not mugging... yet again

2008-01-12T19:22:00.001+08:00

Had dance today!! Learned the choreo for the 'cane' dance, and found out that h-ting was sexy! haha! Congrats to those who got chosen as spice girls, the traffic warden, drug trafficker and the 'commoners', for everyone of you are equally important. Lets work hard together and get that shield!!!

However, something dampened my spirits today, those in d-works should know why. Am I not putting enough effort? Not trying hard enough? Or do I just plainly suck?
ARGH.
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. I JUST WANT TO HELP THE TEAM AND DO MY PART WELL FOR DANCEY-WORKS.

I'm sick and I've been eating Macs TWICE already. Do not really have a choice, for KAP is near to school, and when the canteen is closed and have to order in food, Macs is most convenient. Its really sad when people around me CONSTANTLY remind me that fries are carcinogenic, plus the fact that I don't exactly LOVE Macs.
FAM!! I NEED GOOD FOOD!

New year resolutions ARE A WASTE OF TIME. Seriously. Why waste time making them when they are so hard to follow!??!?
I need to study study study study. I don't care if I have no life. Dance makes everything interesting for me so I guess it should be enough.

What'll happen when I don't go for cca anymore?!?!?! [I don't even want to think about it]

I love WD. Love our exco. You guys brightened up today for me. Thanks!

Wish I had people like how Zong has the trinity..

Two days in a row!

2008-01-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

I know I know. I should be mugging. I'm waiting for some s***** thing to download so.. voila.

Had a 'gossip' session with cal, rach, zong today.
Thinking about it, I don't think its really right for me to say whether or not I have an impression of someone. People may have said they have a good impression of me when I'm dancing, but honestly speaking I don't have much of an impression of myself. This is not trying to be modest or anything. Its just the fact. My friends might argue and say its not true. I believe you guys, I just don't believe it myself. Anyway, in my batch, there were so many fantastic dancers that, no offence, cannot be compared to the dancers in wd now.

I guess those that really left a great impression of me thus far are (not counting shiwei and chiitarng), krystle, nina, grace, steph, dismas, jamie, and tis. I'm not including the 07-08 batch though. I don't think its really fair since I only had a year with them.
Tis, don't scream. I guess I'll explain why, since you're the only one out of all of them that'll read my blog.
I guess you impressed me as time went by. Like how you'll always claim that you can't do the girl dances, and end up doing them so well. Your style is unique yet you manage to blend in during group dances. Yup. haha. Don't get your ego inflated, and don't deny it. If you deny it, you're a bozo. A hot bozo.

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Today, 9 people have said that I'm weird... and I'm still counting. Hahaha. I've realized only just, that since I can't fight with them, join them! Therefore, WEIRD IS COOL.

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Econs was great. Studied only for a few minutes due to me arriving home super late last night, and I DON'T NEED TO GO FOR REMEDIAL for I didn't get 3/5 and below!!
YAYAYAYAY.
PLUS, another happy thing today was...
THE KNOWLEDGE THAT WE'RE GOING TO GET OUR WD SWEATERS TOMORROW!!

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I shall refrain from saying the bad stuff. Why spoil my day by remembering it?

And still it doesn't end

2008-01-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

Dance aud!!!
Hectic but it was kind of fun. Really made me reminisce on the time that I, was part of the throng that was trying desperately to remember the steps and do well. I guess I have come a long way, seeing that I could miraculously catch the contemporary aud dance and teach the group that was assigned to me simultaneously. [REG. I have NOT forgiven you!! Haha.]

Pleasantly surprised at the turnout.

Now, lets all take a pause and shout.

THERE ARE GUYS!!

Our cca is so pathetic. The many guys that got in eventually wander off to some other school. Those that got in this time better do well in their O's if not, maybe the whole exco will go and hunt them down. Mwahaha.

On to my grievances, I left school at around 10pm!! What made that worse was that I have an Econs test tomorrow that my teacher decided to surprise us by telling us this minute AND totally insignificant fact during TODAY'S tutorial.
OH JOY.

I'm falling sick, and I think I'm running a fever. I have a love-hate relationship with this weather. My favourite weather, yet I don't fancy things that make me feel all uncomfortable inside.

The time where I can cover myself up in tons of comforters and wraps, drowning and relaxing in it without breaking a sweat. [Miracle, considering Singapore's hot climate]

I need sleep.
zzZZZzzzz

CRAP

2008-01-03T21:59:00.000+08:00

CCA Carnival tomorrow.
Join Western Dance....

OR ELSE.

Dancing today made me feel like I've not danced in ages and ages. When, in reality, it was not that long ago... I think. Auditions will be held next tuesday, and I am really excited. I hope those auditioning will be really good, and help bring the standard in WD up. On that note, saw the Hiphop and Contemporary item for busking today, and I was impressed by how 'drea improved. The contemporary item was mindblowing and really captured my attention. Dan really knows how to choose his music.

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As some of you would've known, I went for CIP @ Daybreak Childcare centre a few times during the holidays. They mistook Mel and I to be Japanese! Can you believe? And now I have another mission. To teach those children dances every fortnight, depending on my schedule. I guess this is where being in WD puts what I've gained in good use.

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School is REALLY hectic. Listened with shock on Ms Lim's departure, the content to be covered for Math and History... I am feeling the pressure. So much so that I finish every single piece of homework given on the day and try to do some revision.

The reason of my procrastination at this moment has no other meaning than the sole feeling to write about something after checking out the dance blog.

My life revolves around family, school and dance.

How wonderful.

And here it comes again

2008-01-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

1st of January.
Again.

Similar to last year's, yet so different.
I'm not looking forward to 2008. There's so many things to do and not much time.

Resolutions?
Perhaps I have a teeny one.

Although, I hope I can follow it throughout the year.

Dancing in danceworks is really fun! Pressuring but still, fun. I wish I will be able to perform in Aristal. I wish we can go for the finals of danceworks. I wish I can ...

What's the point of wishing when all one has to do is try to achieve it?
So I shall stop moaning.

DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!

Buon Natale

2007-12-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS!!!!

Had a class christmas party, which was kind of sad for me for I had to leave after an hour... Oh well. I wasn't supposed to be there anyway.
Honestly, I didn't want to go initially, but I don't regret it. Seeing the gang again brings back really fond memories and I was really happy. THANKS to gladys for the cute pen, tis for a lasagne, nat, mel, mer, lou, celle, clar, cherry... and more. Missed you guys loads.
CHERRY, JOHN AND DARIUS came for the 'party'!!!
Was really surprised and super glad!

Had to celebrate Christmas early with my family for my cousins were planning to leave on tuesday. Played games and I received some unexpected gifts... My aunt gave me a tube dress... HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WEAR IT OUT?!? It was so hilarious, and my parents gave me something I didn't prepare to receive.. shall leave it up to you to guess what it is.

Don't have much expectations for tomorrow despite this being Christmas Eve. Stuck doing my work when the rest are downstairs watching a show..
But I shouldn't complain, for I finished watching Coffee Prince. *evil laughter*

So, Merry Christmas to all of you, and may the spirit of giving and fun be forever present in your lives.

2007-12-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

Le Poisson

La nuit le pêcheur prend
Son bateau pour aller travailler

Le matin, il vend
Le poisson au poissonnier

Le vétérinaire achète le poisson
Pour en faire un dîner romantique avec sa copine

Sa copine est très jolie et très heureuse aussi
Aomso elle donne un gros pourboire à la serveuse

La serveuse prend l'argent et
Le donne à sa mère

Sa mère utilise l'argent et
Mijote un plat de poisson pour le président

Le président est satisfait et
Toutes les personnes sont contentes

-a poem I wrote in 7th grade
Sujet: La ronde des métiers
D'après La Chanson du vitrier J. Prévert

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Went to try out for tuition. It was alright I guess.. I imagined the creaky fan slowly turning to a stop, the gentle flickering of the lights sighing, the chattering like a blurred watercolour painting and the spoiled clock reawakening to announce the time.

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Mr Ho is leaving NJ!!!!
This is a really huge blow for wd for he has done so much for us. I guess the consolation is that Ms Oon will be taking over!
Dance is running my life now, and I am not really complaining for I love it. However, this is not the case for my parents and the rest that lives with me except my sisters... Perhaps the practices have become a makeshift alcove for me to relax. The laughter of 'xiaohei', 'poking person a.k.a satay stick', 'x-brother', 'lao gu dong', 'fantuan', 'waterfall' and more just brightens up my day. The fact that I learn something new everytime just adds to everything despite the aches I get all over when I go back home.

I don't think I can do Aristal. Its too depressing to talk about..

Food that needs to be eaten. SOON. = Strawberry Cheesecake Ice-cream from Ben & Jerry's

As the days goes on

2007-12-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

My teacher from Italy has had a baby!!!

If you wish, you can see it from this website below

Its so amazing how these 4 years have just passed by so quickly.

Anyway, I realized that I love the National Library @ Bugis. Went with Mel to do History the other day and it just reminded me of how much I like to be there. Borrowed a few books which I have read finished but my mum is banning me from going there for when I read, I kind of do not study...Although that study trip made me frighteningly aware of my appetite. Although I ate quite a heavy lunch (noodles plus ya kun kaya toast), I still ate a huge fried chicken and an eclair plus a huge piece of raisin bread.

Oh dear.

Hahaha.

I've been cooking!! Made roasted chicken with Coke the other day!

I'm so proud of myself.

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Went for a photoshoot with my family on Sunday, and I realized that I CAN WEAR DRESSES!
As in my body shape suits most of the dresses there so it was relatively easy for me to choose one to take a picture in. My sister however had a much MUCH harder time.
It was surprisingly fun however, I won't post the pictures up for I'm too embarassed. Haha.

Midnight feast

2007-12-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

DELICIOUS.
Just went out with my family for a late night feast and ate roti prata and milo godzilla.
Yum Yum Yum!

Everything is in a mess in my life but I've decided that I should just let things run its course and not get too frustrated with it.

My life revolves around dance more than studies now and its seriously a huge problem.
I need to buck up on my studies. Mugging everyday since I need to improve my chem and math.

I am not a science person.

ARTS.ARTS.ARTS.ARTS.ARTS.ARTS.

Horrible chain of events happening though.
One of the worst is that I might not be able to dance anymore.
My mum, aunt and I had this conversation where they asked if I'm so involved in dance, why not pursue a career in dance?

I might not be a genius, but I know my limits.

However, someone told me just the other day when I was 'complaining' about my problems, that I don't need a stage to dance. I can dance anywhere, even if only in my heart. Its really true, although it might be saddening, but if the worst happens, at least I won't be cut off from this thing that brings me so much joy despite the occasional sadnees and anger.

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Two huge tubs of Ben&Jerry's sit silently
in the freezer.
So tempting.
I open one,
Attempt to guzzle it down.
Got caught.
The two tubs are still sitting quietly.
I'm waiting
For that rainy day to come
When I can open them
And relish in delicious cold
Ice-cream.

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Mwahaha

Questions

2007-11-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

Seeking answers
For questions which are often
Left unanswered
Or even ignored.
Tears may slip
From the place where it is usually
Kept under control.
Understanding
The future's never certain
Questioning why things often go wrong
Inconsequential matters
Are often those which are voiced.
Shouting silently
at the top of my lungs
Lifting my head
And hoping for a day.
Praying that maybe
My hidden wishes
Will meet with a miracle.
Hate bubbling beneath the surface
Threatening to change
A person into a harridan.
With control held only
By a single strand of faith.
Perhaps like dawn,
There'll be a flicker
Of light and hope.
All one has to do,
Is to patiently wait.

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I'm plagued with questions, demands and alot of stuff. Its like a web, refusing to let me even attempt to find a way out, but I still have to try.
Should I follow my heart or my parents. Should I do what I like or just do what needs to be done.
I've always been the obedient child, so why are the rules placed upon me harsher than those on those less obedient?
Maybe I'm not mature enough. Perhaps I need someone to guide me. But is this done through pressurizing and harsh debates?
Realized that I don't understand many things makes me want to work harder. AND I'M TRYING. So why can't [they] see that?
Despise going to places I used to love anymore. Am I rebelling? Or is this again explained by counsellors as a 'stage' that a teen has to go through.
ARGH.
During this period of time, I realized that I'm blinded by prejudice towards some people sometimes, and I'm really really sorry. I promise I'll forget those prejudices and befriend you for who you are.
Looking back towards Butts Off, there are times when I feel so frustrated for none of the dancers are fully aware of the extent of the problems that we had. To relieve some of it, I shouted at times and I'm truly apologetic. I'm not usually like that and I'll make an effort to learn how to control my emotions.
Dance camp was a blast. Dan's contemporary practices are really fun!
And therefore the multi-million dollar question:
TO CONTEMP OR NOT TO CONTEMP

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Three of my favourite songs. Please listen to the lyrics and hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Honest Questions Daniel Bedingfield

If You're Not the One Daniel Bedingfield

Never Gonna Leave Your Side Daniel Bedingfield

Flavours

2007-11-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

I am never going to eat Crystal Jade until a year has passed.

Why?

Because I've eaten it twice in 3 days, and both times ended in me gorging till I had a tummy ache.
Argh.

First time was after watching Chitty Chitty Bang Bang!!!!, and the second was to celebrate my cousin's birthday today (HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL!). Holding on to my stomach whilst writing this, I am totally disgusted for not restraining myself and to eat till I was 80% full instead of FREAKING 120% FULL.

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Now for some post Butts Off blues,
I am seriously missing the Butts Off guys for we kind of met every single day except Sundays for practice, and our practice kind of drags on from morning till night.
Luckily, there is a sudden sprouting of many Butts Off meetings!
First was on Monday when we went to Swensens then Tis, Calvin, Zhangfan and Sophia pangseh-ed Huiting, Priya and I to watch the Game Plan for we three had to go to school for preparation of Dance Camp.
Then, we have an outing for ~~tomorrow~~ today too!!
But I might be late for I AM SO GOING TO CUT MY HAIR.

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I can't find my library book.
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.
Oh. and plus the fact I've been having nightmares about me dying is not funny
(Calvin's revenge)...

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Had CIP ~~today~~ yesterday from 0855-1800 at the Daycare centre. The kids were seriously very hyper and they were all asking for individual attention. Thank goodness I'm surrounded by irritating people so my I think I am quite patient even though they kept screaming and clawing at my hand.
I love doing CIP. Even though I just teach them some math/english or to mark their work etc. it sure beats staying at home and looking at the computer screen.
Plus, Gladys made the CIP trip fun too!

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I hate it when people call me 'Honey' or 'Darling' or 'Sweets' or 'Love'.
EWW.

We're too cool

2007-11-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

XFRESH ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!!

Butts off was just crazy.
The floor was super super slippery and I nearly fell.
I totally blanked out and forgot one part.

So basically I thought we were super screwed.

BUT...

WE GOT 2nd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

screamzzzzz

We're just too cool.

$600 whoo!

However, before the results were announced, they had this best dancer 'competition'. Basically the judges choose 4 people they deem to be the best dancer of the competition, and then the 4 people 'battle' it out on the stage.
To my utmost horror and shock, Xfresh (which is the name of our team) got called upon, and then my name was picked out.
What made it worse was that I totally didn't know what was going on so I kinda spaced out, and then the emcee asked for my name and called me 'ting ting'...
WHAT THE..
And then I proceeded to make a FOOL out of myself, and dragged Calvin along for I didn't know what to do. Oops.
Hahahahaha.

BUT

I got cool cool vouchers!!!

THERE'S LIKE A VOUCHER FOR GELARE!!!

But I am still very embarassed, and Weizong's comments like "Don't worry, I will only laugh at you for 2 weeks" didn't help much. The cherry of this whole fiasco was that ERIKA VIDEOTAPED IT.
OMG
I can never leave this embarassment down.
HOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOWHOW

I know that the people around me keep saying I did fine and all, but THAT WAS NOT THE POINT.

But what can I do?

Sigh.

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To

Tis Rach Calvin Sophia Huiting Zhangfan Priya Serene Jamie
I am super super super happy to be in this dance with you guys! I'm really proud and I guess all the practices were worth it right? Hahaha!
I'll always remember the emo-ing, laughing, lazing, frustration, and all the wonderful feelings that make us the special butts off group.
I won't thank each and everyone of you individually in this post, because I'm want to be lazy (: so perhaps next time then!
Thanks so much for making this a wonderful experience and I'm really grateful to be with the bunch of you guys. All of you have been a constant source of encouragement for me (even if you may not know it) and lets all work hard towards DANCEWORKS 08!

Mr Ho Ms Oon Ms Ng Reg Weizong Andrea Jer Tim Shining JiaTeng and the rest of WD
Thanks so much for your constant support for our dance. From doing our props to helping us with our choreo and every little thing that you guys did.
Grazie mille.

Mer Celle
Thanks. For the flower and being there.
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WE ARE JUST TOO COOL TO BE TRUE.

MWAHAHAHA

P.S Will post pictures when I steal them from those who have cameras.

BUTTSoff!

2007-11-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHH!!!

FINALS = ~~TOMORROW~~ TODAY

And I'm still awake because there are some stuff I cannot not do for I need it done for our competition tomorrow.

AOIHR:IUGB:IUVH:EIRUHG:WKEJUB@O*# Y{@(*#Y {(*@Y

Silent Observer

2007-11-15T22:22:00.001+08:00

Had a lesson with Michelle from S.Y.T.Y.C.D. season 1!!!!!
I think she's beautiful. She dances well, is really funny and she's a really nice person. I learned alot. haha. Specially on the swiveling hips part. Actually I felt super awkward. I wasn't comfortable with my body for I felt that I was too thin (no muscles), was one of the tallest (even though I'm considered really short already) etc. etc.
Therefore, since I can't do much about my height, all I can do is to exercise and gain some muscles.

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As I've been dancing every single day (except Sundays) with the same group of people ever since Promos ended, I have found out certain things about them.

1. Tis has uncontrollable laughter that its just hilarious watching her.

2. Tis' sense of humour is weird. She laughs at the most random stuff and this was further confirmed as I remember that she laughed when in a movie THE CRUCIBLE, John Proctor died.

3. Rachel is seriously very cute

4. Rachel is also very very hardworking.

5. Priya's giggles = contagious

6. Priya is my twin
-->same birthday
-->same dislike for mayo
-->green nails!
-->and more...

7. Calvin is an a**hole, and he is living in denial that he is not a homosexual. haha!

8. Calvin derives sadistic pleasure from fake bashing people up and a secretly skilled manipulator.

9. Sophia = SO HEALTHY. Who uses tissue to wipe away the oil on the prata!?!? haha!

10. Sophia likes to touch people. Evidence from how she'll poke everyone.

11. Sophia is also my beloved food provider!

12. Zhangfan is crazy about emo and when he gets frustrated, bangs his body on the floor doing some crazy breakdancing move.

OK.

EMO POST ALERT FOR I NEED TO GET SOME STUFF OFF MY CHEST SO DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WISH TO RUIN YOUR DAY.

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Honestly speaking I hate shouting at people for I cannot stand confrontations. So sometimes I really hate myself for shouting at the Butts Off dancers to shut up or practice. There are times when I feel that because I'm required to maintain some kind of image during dance (like not being too slack and kind of strict) I feel that I'm wearing some sort of mask. The way I act at home, dance and school's different from each other, and the one that I act most 'ab-normally' is during dance practice. Ok. I admit that its not always a facade, for there are times when I act like myself. However, those times when I act like myself is usually when we're resting or having some eating session with the dancers or helping them one-by-one.

I really wish to be in Danceworks '08, and I am trying my best to improve myself for it without sacrificing my studies. However, my parents' wish for me to not be so involved in dance have been an increasingly heated discussion among us, often ending up with my submitting or with no conclusion for one of us would walk away. However, I know studies are more important for its highly unlikely (actually improbable) that I'd have a career in dance despite how much I love it.

I am really thankful for the people around me, even though for some of them I rarely see them since its the hols. For example, I saw Nat this morning in school and I was really really happy. Tis is the person that I sort of depend on during dance, for she keeps me sane (no matter how shocking this may be) and helps me correct the steps for the other guys. Mel is a wonderful person, reminding me about work, Reg for her constant support and many many more people.

This thanking thing actually have to be extended to my 2 wonderful siblings, even though the older one has the A's, but other sisterly talks with each other helps relieve alot of the stress that's building up inside.
I'm seriously very very stressed. Coping with pressure at home, school and those that I place upon myself. It has escalated to the stage that I can't even fall asleep without worrying about something and that I rarely have appetite, considering that I love food... that's saying something. My arm is hurting like crazy at random times, and at some points I've had to grit my teeth to stop screaming while I'm dancing. I wish to get in the top3. No. Make that a want or even better, a need. However, as all dancers should know, training isn't everything that will allow you to reach your goal, and the best we can do is to just give our best. I can only practice alone to improve my steps since whenever I'm with the rest of the team, I end up being the one who oversees and corrects mistakes. I hope I don't bring the the whole Butts Off team down. After making you guys go through such gruelling training, I have mixed feelings for each and everyone of you. (though I highly doubt most of you would be reading this post.. or even come to this emo session)

I don't think my stress is visible to anyone except my younger mei mei, whom I love super duper much. Her occasional childishness and temper always brightens up my day whether she is beating me up or hugging me.

END OF EMO-NESS. BACK TO HAPPY-NESS.

Geddit? Geddit?

hahahahahaha!

C'est La Vie

2007-11-14T22:27:00.001+08:00

What I said in my previous post about not touching Calvin anymore...
Well, I have to touch him..

FIRST, I push him away

SECOND..

drumroll please

This is my favourite part...

....

....

I GET TO SLAP HIM!

Ooh. Sweet Sweet Revenge.
Haha.

Just kidding.
I felt really bad for I kept trying to slap him without hurting him, so the slap looked really fake. So there was once when I tried to slap him for real [although I still didn't use much force] This is the first time I've slapped someone. Its too cool!!!!

Haha.

Honestly speaking I feel utterly horrible, but not so horrible when the stupid idiot slapped me to explain what he meant by slapping someone. Plus, I can pretend to be angry with him. NO PROBLEMO with that. haha
Anyway, had an emo session with Andrea, Weizong, RachChew and Calvin at Mad Jack's.

[FAM ALERT!!!]

The Beef Burger w/ Chips

3/10

The patty was soft and crumbly, the chips were just TOO SALTY i could feel my hair dropping, and what was worse was that sitting there talking, those waiters started buttering the bread for the burgers, and flies just landed on the bread and THEY DIDN'T CARE.
Considering that I just ate a burger, I was quite disgusted.

Aside from that we had an emo session and basically talked about stupid stuff [as usual] and how to improve ourselves in dance.
I personally think that Rachel can dance really well, and I admire her constant strive towards improving herself.

S.Y.T.Y.C.D instructor to teach us tomorrow!!!

excited. excited. excited.

Dance issues aside, MY HOUSE IS sort of IN A MESS.
My table is loaded with stuff from socks to empty boxes to picture frames to random accessories.
This is all because I started trying to CLEAR my table, but unfortunately its in a bigger mess than it used to be.

Oh well. Too bad.

P.S After eating the pizza and weighing myself today, I realized I lost another kilo. WTFKJSHOUBBQ?! So I guess Calvin has all the luck.

P.P.S Apparently I really strained my muscle on my left hand. Or as my mum says, I have a clot due to excessive straining to maintain my balance when draping a leg over Calvin. I am writing this after the traumatic 'massage' that she gave me, and I'm writing all of this with my right hand.

...

2007-11-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

Got into the FINALS!

Sorry for the super late update, but dance practices are more intensive than ever, since the finals' THIS SATURDAY.

I feel really horrible. I think that I am an absolute terror in the dance studio. People say I'm scary...even Ms Oon! And I make them practice like crazy. Like 123098532485 times.

I'm so sorry.

Today was kind of a slow day as things went. Calvin is my new partner, and although I'm happy that I don't have to dance to the disgusting Gimme More song anymore, but now I always feel like I'm falling.
Why?
'Cause I have to lean on Calvin with one leg!?!
And although I'm really sorry about letting him support my 'heaviness' its super scary to have this feeling that you MAY DROP ANYTIME. Chii Tarng helped us, and guess what! He laughed. And asked me to hold Calvin's neck so CALVIN DOESN'T SUPPORT ONE OF MY HANDS ANYMORE.
Grrrrr....
I'm so sorry that Calvin and Chii Tarng is of the other gender, so they cannot experience what I'm feeling!! They make it seem so easy.
"OH! Just lean like that..."
And then I collapse to the floor.

Then I think about the slices of pizza I ate for lunch... It'd be so funny if Calvin can't support me!
Anyway, most of the changes have been done. PLUS I don't have to touch Calvin anymore!!

I totally understand how Tis feels now. Calvin's face is just so.. laughable. More than Chii Tarng's, and trust me, having partnered with him for a dance before, his face is pretty damn*d funny.
However, these 2 guys decided to team up and insult me... Why do I have such partners! Insults and constant teasing the whole day.

Insult No. 1
Chii Tarng "So Calvin, you finally understand how I feel when partnering [me]"
Calvin "Yes. I so sympathise with you!"

...

Insult No. 2
Chii Tarng "Now you need to look at her[me] with regret. Sigh or something."
Calvin "Hahaha. That's not very difficult. Since I'm unfortunately stuck with her as a partner."

THANKS SO MUCH GUYS....

Insult No. 3

On our way out of school

Calvin "We just need to marry someone.. rich and beautiful"

Chii Tarng "I was going to mention [me], but hearing your criteria, I realized that she CMI"

Me "I know that I'm not rich and beautiful. haha."

Chii Tarng "I don't know about the rich part, but the beautiful part is true la.."

Calvin and Chii Tarng laughing

Me " Thanks. I know I'm not beautiful. Stop rubbing it in."

Chii Tarng "Ohh.. Well, you know that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I think you're beautiful."

THEN HE SHOWS ME HIS CROSSED FINGERS.

Oh. Life is so cruel. I was stuck with 2 horrible guys.. Jeez.

Hahaha.

Oh well.

At least it was not as horrible as some of the insults I get anyway. But then again, WHO CARES?

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Dance is running my entire life. Dance everyday from morn to afternoon, making me reach home just before dinner. I was saying after dance that my mum will kill me when I reach home [but she has lessons in TCM so I'm saved for the moment] and Calvin the prat said "Oh! You should kill yourself so your mum doesn't sin."

So basically I'm doomed either way.

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AND THERE'S EVEN MORE HORRIBLE NEWS

[FAM members alert!!!]

There is no good ice-cream and fruits in school anymore!!!!!!!

SHOCK.HORROR.SHOCK.HORROR

haha. I think I should set up a store selling good ice-cream [and cheap] and loads and loads of fruits.

Oh. Don't they look absolutely wonderful!

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Despite that horrific news, here are some good ones!

1. I'M GOING TO THE ZOO!!!!!

Bringing my little sis and cousins for a treat!

2. I'M GOING TO FOLLOW THE TEN PARADOXICAL COMMANDMENTS!

If you don't know about it... well, you should.

Isn't it amazing that despite everything, I'm feeling ridiculously happy?

I think that blogging should always be happy. Why bother emo-ing someone else? Don't spoil the days of others with your misery. HOWEVER, I know that sometimes, you just need to be emo, as someone said to me.. emo is good for health or something to that extent.

My To-Do List!

2007-11-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

As the the reality of life sinks in, I realize that I need to have a to-do list.

And being extremely bored, I have a few catering for different needs in life.

FOR HOME

1. Organize Table (and keep it that way)

2. File all school papers

3. Start being more proactive in the kitchen (hahaha! provided I don't burn it down)

4. Help my younger sister more often with chores

5. NO QUARRELS/SQUABBLES/FIGHTS with ANYONE

FOR SCHOOL

1. Revise 1 subject EVERDAY

2. Finish holiday homework before DECEMBER

3. Come up with a study schedule (this kinds of ties in with no. 1 huh?)

4. Read more books!

5. Visit the library once a fortnight

FOR LEISURE

1. Watch at least 5 movies

2. Go do some exercise at least once a week

3. Bring my sister and cousins out on a zoo trip!

4. Start making/getting CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!!!

5. Maintain my papaya tree

Ok. Technically its not that small since I can't upload my camera pictures but.. you get the idea.

6. FAM OUTING! For we all love food!! Therefore we need to eat more!

7. Improve dancing skills

8. Get recipes from grandma!!

ZOMG

2007-11-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

DANCE
COMPETITION
TOMORROW!?!?!?!?!

and to release some of my nervous energy..

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love the slippers jo and celle! Thanks!!
and...

PW IS O.V.E.R

Such great friends

2007-11-01T14:07:00.000+08:00

I feel really really happy to have super great friends.

Although, I seriously didn't suspect a thing (Ok. Perhaps I'm just super slow) so when they jumped out from behind the wall in Mel's house, I was seriously shocked and taken aback. While Mel was busily trying to make me stay in her study, I had no idea on what was happening outside, and was LISTENING TO WEIRD MUSIC VIDEOS WITH YI HOONG!!!!

HI YT HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY im sorry i couldnt be there eat your icecream and get fat! HAHAHA and i heard about the AHEM.

That was Nat.

Yt is beautiful!!!

That was Mel.

And I'm not beautiful and Nat, its ok. and ARGHHH! Stop talking about that!@!$!?@$

It was something between FRIENDS.

Anyway, on with my story. So Yi Hoong and I were listening to these funny asian music videos laughing away (although we were supposed to be doing PW), when Mel burst in and said "It's time for lunch!"

And then I saw my surprise.

MY ENTIRE CLASS(with the exception of Tony, Sam, Kien, Nat and Jolynn) came and wished me a Happy Birthday. It was the first time my birthday was so celebrated by my friends. I'm still at a loss of words on how to describe my feelings then - anger, surprise, happiness, sadness etc.

Anyway, thank you all super super a lot of times.

I loved Colin's brownie, my Ice-cream voucher sponsored by WeiLiang, Gladys, Nat, Colin, my beautiful treasure chest, Jo's cookies, my lamp, and more.

But thanks especially to my beloved Mel TEE!!!! for that wonderful lunch (we had a pizza party and plenty of cupcakes with loads of icing) and Tisiana and Yi Hoong for trying hard to not make me notice anything. (Yi Hoong is a REALLY good actress....)

I guess this birthday is one that I'll remember for years to come.

But it was kinda ruined by my stupid cousin. HE THOUGHT MY BIRTHDAY WAS THE NEXT DAY. So when I was asleep, he called me at 9am!?!?! to wish me a happy birthday. Such an UNGODLY hour in the morning!!!! I was half-asleep when I picked up my phone. Haha. Then in school, Calvin gave me a present wrapped in white paper, and it was super hilarious because he had no tape and used a marker to draw tape on the paper and used blu-tack to stick it together. Then he said that he was not that ancient because now we're only a year apart from each other. (His birthday was on the 25th Oct)

Here are some other pictures at my 'surprise' courtesy of Mel.

How could I be so dumb... and not notice anything

WeiLiang sweeping up the mess that... he created?

So all in all it was a great birthday. It did not start out great. I woke up with an eye infection and had to go to the doctor's. And my dad wasn't at home, and I spent the day thinking I wouldn't have a cake. BUT I DID! CHOCOLATE CAKE!!!

CAN YOU SEE IT??? Its the one, 2nd column, last row.

Now I can have 2 cakes for my birthday, for my dad and I are going to celebrate our birthday's together when he returns to Singapore.

OH. And thanks to all those who wished me a happy birthday - jemregjosephterencelaurenyueshikangtingnatcherryzhaorongnatnatnatnatnat!(okay enough nats)Eeshapriyaserenerachelhuitingyimian... ok. I can't remember already. So I'm really sorry if I didn't thank you. But YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT I'M REALLY GRATEFUL.

P.S Nat wrote that many many 'nat's'

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1 DAY TO OP. actually less than 24 hours.

2 DAYS TO DANCE COMPETITION.

!@!@?#!@$?!@$"!@!@?#!@$?!@$

omgosh. I am so stressed.

But... NO WORRIES!

Next week I'll be FREE FREE FREE!!!

Changing Times

2007-10-29T20:31:00.000+08:00

I cannot believe this.

Have you ever had a time where everything that you loved became totally boring and you don't feel excited about it anymore?

I love food. There WERE many kinds of food which I WAS crazy about. But now? I don't even feel CRAVINGS for chocolate cake. I don't feel like eating ice-cream. My past favourite food dishes are just totally tasteless now and I don't have that ooh! Lets eat this and that and this and that feeling anymore.

That kind of sucks. BIG TIME.

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?!

Oh well. I guess a consolation is that I still love to sleep.

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And since I'm bored. Voila.

Congratulations. You are WHITE.

WHITES are motivated by PEACE.

They seek independence and require kindness. They resist confrontation at all costs. To them, feeling good is more important than being good. They are typically quiet by nature, process things very deeply and objectively with great clarity. Of all the colors, WHITES are the best listeners. They respect people who are direct but recoil from perceived hostility or verbal battle.
WHITES need their "alone time" and refuse to be controlled by others. WHITES want to do things their own way and in their own time. They ask little of others and resent others demanding much of them. WHITES are much stronger than people think, but are not often seen for their strength because they don't easily reveal their feelings. WHITES are even-tempered, diplomatic, and the voice of reason; but can also be indecisive, unexpressive, and silently stubborn. When others interact with you, as a WHITE you respond to them best if they are kind, accepting and supporting of your individuality, and if they look for non-verbal clues to understand your feelings.

www.thecolorcode.com

How true is this? Maybe I should retake it later.

-->

Surprises

2007-10-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

Surprises and Shocks sure pop out of anywhere.
Met my director at starbucks i think (expected) when I went to Plaza Singapura to buy cloth for our banner.
Bumped into one of my old friends.
Saw my primary school teacher.
My cousin (boy. age 13.) super super tall plus he's really thin. Its quite amazing how they have really dramatic growth spurts, although this fascination was dampened with his constant teasing about my height, or lack thereof.
I realized that my lovely potatoes were over-roasted in my attempt to cook dinner for my family.
While watching Stepford Wives - they were robots?!?
My friend told me something I never thought about before.
Ponderosity issues
The little talk with Mel, Colin, Jiayi, and Rayshio. (hilarious. thought provoking, yet outright gross.)
My friend thinks Zac Efron is cute. ?!?!?
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Things that need to be said:

Sorry Tis. I haven't been able to watch the movies that you lent me due to lack of time.

Sorry for those who may suffer from food poisoning due to eating my burnt potatoes.

Sorry if I was a harridan during dance practices.

Sorry to the exco for not being able to come for the past 2 meetings.

argh. there are so many apologies that need to be said!!

Sorry to my sister, for not being around to help you with your music theory.

Sorry to my family and those in butts off, for making you guys worry/stay back in school so late for dance.

Sorry if I've been an absolute jerk.

Thanks for everything guys. Especially my PW members, yihoong, tis, & mel and certain people in dance, who really made my life fun and helped me in various ways.

HUGS for those people who helped me greatly through Promos! I improved generally. Up 2 grades for Math and History. 1 for Econs. GP and Chem maintained.

My cousin, who's in NYJC, same year as I am, thinks I'm disgusting for Econs is my best subject. I think he's disgusting for his best subject is Chem. Haha.

Oh my tian. I think my chem is utterly horrible, so I've already started revising. Yes I know.. Mugger Mugger Mugger. But if you see my results, TRUST ME. You cannot NOT mug.

AND I think I can keep all my subjects!!! YAYAYAY.

Now all that's left on my mind is DANCE and PW.

PW rocks my socks, and dance...has never been something that is boring to me so.. However, things like the sweater and miscellaneous stuff going on in my life is burning out my energy. I'm just super tired. Mentally and Physically. But really, who cares? I just need to endure this until after the competition and PW oral presentation. What's the song again? We can do it. Yes we can! or something along those lines.

THINK POSITIVE.

THINK OF THE DELICIOUS FOOD THAT YOU CAN HEARTILY EAT AFTER ALL THESE THINGS THAT YOU GOT TO DO.

Its not that difficult afterall. You just need rest and food.

Anyway, talking about rest, it is around 11 and therefore

Bon Nuit!

Thoughts

2007-10-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

Dance has been hectic these past few days to the extent that I end only around 1030pm once. Considering after packing up and everything, if my mum didn't fetch me home, I would only eat dinner at midnight. Then yesterday we ended at around 915pm. Therefore, decided that we should set at least a latest time, hence today we ended at 815pm and the latest we can go is till 845-9pm.

On my way back home, I was watching this 'documentary' on TV Mobile called Life Story. It chronicled the life of a leper and it made me wonder about what leprosy is about. You hear many things about it, but do you really know what it is and the misconceptions about it?

This is the picture of a leper.

Things to know about leprosy:

1. Leprosy is NOT confirmed to be passed on through normal contact. However, it is said to be passed through skin or through nasal mucosa, yet there is still no scientific proof on how the bacteria where leprosy is contracted from, gets to the surface area of the skin.

2. Despite numerous research, the results on how leprosy is contracted vary of great degrees when held in different leper colonies in various countries. It is not HIGHLY CONTAGIOUS.

3. Leprosy DOES NOT bring about the decaying of skin. However, the decaying of skin happens when lepers are not aware of rotting skin for they can't feel it, and hence the neglect leads to the decaying of skin.

4. ALSO, it does not cause body parts to fall off.

5. Only few leper colonies remain in the world, most prominently Vietnam and India.

6. Leprosy is NOT Tzaraath, a malady described in Hebrew scriptures and led to the stigmas placed upon lepers in social communities

7. Ways to treat and control leprosy has been invented therefore it is NOT incurable

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On to a better note, dear Mel is setting up an Online Bakery!

Isn't that just fantastic?

Brownies! Cupcakes and MORE!

I have such cool friends... now where does it leave me?

Ans: Stuffed down a toilet.

butts off

2007-10-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

New choreography = New moves
Tis and I got 'selected' but a wonderful panel of "judges", making us do this sexy,seducing, super disgusting, irking, hair raising dance. Did I forget to mention super disgusting?!?!

SUPER DISGUSTING.

But the chair dance is quite cool.
YAY.

DANCE IS THE COOL-EST, FUN-NEST, BEST-EST, GREAT-EST, (includes all of the good stuff) THING THAT ONE CAN DO.

So, regardless of whether you dance well or not, you'll never regret joining dance. 'Cause its too fun.

Except during times where SUPER DISGUSTING moves appear because *someones* idea. HINT HINT.

F.O.S

2007-10-17T22:29:00.001+08:00

Went to ebay for the first time in my life. It was disappointing. The above 2 are the 2 that seem remotely user-friendly. However, on my journey finding a polaroid camera, I realised that THE FILMS ARE REALLY EXPENSIVE.

What's the point of it being cheap if the film is super ex?

F.O.S!

Dad's leaving to Korea, then later to US then Europe.

What's the point of having a birthday if he isn't there?

At least my mum might make it back in time.

Its not about making a fuss on my birthday. Honestly speaking, I think that the celebration of birthdays are often exaggerated by many people. I don't need presents, I just want to be around my friends and family. That's not too much to ask for is it?

I digress.

I don't get why the word 'maid' has such a bad connotation to it. Personally, I feel that its those class-conscious people who make a big fuss on calling them 'domestic helpers', for I have never once thought that the word was degrading. One perhaps is self-conscious about the fact, and to bridge the gap, came up with the term 'domestic helper'. However, I do acknowledge that some people use the word 'maid' in a degrading manner, and the more sensitive and caring people will then use the word 'domestic helper' to try to lessen the insult or something. I'm not really sure about that. In the past, maids were just maids. Perhaps it was not the best job around, but to the commoners, it was a job to be envied (so I read in books). It is a legitimate job, and that's just a term. Why add hidden connotations?

All these aside, on to one of my favourite topics...

FOOD.

Ate 2 lunches yesterday. One from the caifan uncle (big portion) then later went to Coronation and ate Tori Katsu Don.

And suprisingly I wasn't that full.

Perhaps the huge buffet I ate the other day expanded my appetite.

Reaction: Should I be jumping with joy or shocked with horror?!

But I think moderation is the key, so I'll just eat healthy amounts and not gorge myself.

Now take a step back at revel in this piece of art:

White chocolate cake with truffles

I was just surfing and I saw this video. Its our IP4 seniors graduating video. This made me really sad, not so much that they're leaving, but that I will be going through the same thing as them next year. The wealth of knowledge and memories, all 4 years of them, both good and bad will only leave their imprints on our mind. So, check out this video, and lets treasure every moment that we can spend together.

BUSY BUSY BUSY

2007-10-16T13:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a tiring day,

1. Woke at 6am
2. Reached health promotion board at 7+
3. Spent 1/2 hr there waiting for this lady who was on leave!!

On the Train
4. Went from Outram to Boon Lay.
5. Boon lay --> City Hall
6. City Hall --> Dhoby Ghaut
7. Dhoby Ghaut --> Raffles Place
8. Raffles Place --> Bugis
9. Bugis --> NATIONAL LIBRARY
(Just to waste my time for the library wouldn't be open till 10)

@ the Library
10. Fiction --> Non-fiction --> Cookery --> Handicraft sections
11. Realized I couldn't borrow with my library card
12. Rayshio lent me his ez-link, which the lady at the counter destroyed so had to use his ez-link

@ Bugis Village
13. Went to Delifrance (I WAS STARVING)-had a croissant
14. Walked aimlessly
15. Went to BHG and went to the children's section
16. Met up with mel
17. THE SEARCH FOR FOOD
18. Sakae? Siam Restaurant? Pastamania? Delifrance? Seoul Garden?
19. Siam Restaurant (thai food buffet)
(Ate until my stomach hurt)

THEN IT WAS....
PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW

20. Bishan--> Yi Hoong's place
21. Toa Payoh --> Binding WR
(From 3+ till 6+)

22. HOME

Uneventful wasn't it?

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Yesterday, I realized that I want something. So I'll go HUNT for it.

Polaroid Camera!!!

Then I can take pictures with all my friends and have the hard copy!

Maybe it wasn't that uneventful

FAM REUNITES!

2007-10-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite topics.

FOOD.

Maybe I should come up with a poem for food.

Oh, glorious
Wonderful,
Food.
You make people,
go google eyed,
weak in the knees,
salivate...

Um. I think that's quite enough. Anyone wants to continue?

Things to know:

1. FAM = Food Aligned Movement!!!!
2. Founders of FAM = Bryan, Jerrick, Shihui, Mel and I
3. Honourary FAM-ers = Sophia and Victor
4. Formed during out short time in SMUN (Singapore Mock/Model United Nations)
5. Our common goal = FOOD RULES
6. Upon reuniting, we had...
Sugar cane drinks (those uber huge cups), Coconuts, BBQ Chicken Wings, Satay (Beef, Chicken, Pork), Oyster Omelette, Hokkien Mee, Carrot Cake, Stingray, Satay Bee Hoon, and Ice-cream
(I hope I didn't forget anything)

On the topic of food, my relatives just returned from a trip to Japan today. There are loads of chocolate and biscuits and sweet treats in my house right now.

D-E-L-C-I-O-U-S

Who needs the world when you have friends like this?

Just for fun

2007-10-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

Soulmate Natasha Bedingfield

Your Guardian Angel The red jumpsuit apparatus

Why is that when one is angry, the anger will be vented on someone else? Then the cycle continues until no one is happy. My mum asked why when I'm angry I'll blast the ear phones and not talk. Thinking about it now, I think its to avoid venting my anger on someone else, and wait till the anger is gone. Perhaps I should find a better way to release my anger. Sadly though, I realize that I'm cursing. For a person who doesn't use the much vulgarities except maybe, stupid idiot, this is saying something. It would be really fun to do a research on emotions and how people control and portray them.

A day not in school

2007-10-09T18:40:00.001+08:00

Woke up early for rollerblading, yet being totally ignored by tan jo lynn.
She promised to come with us yet she slept in and could not be awoken.
Mel baked lovely fat-free muffins for our little 'picnic' and shi hui had sandwiches and the lovely lovely cucumbers.
After, we went to thegreen cafe and had smoothies. Mine was blue rush, with blueberries apple and banana. Mel had avocado cream [forgot the actual name] and shihui had mango blast. On the menu beside the name of the drink, was what the drink helped. Mine apparently is an anti-oxidant, shihui's to 'pump up the energy' and mel's is to be healthy or something. I think my memory is quite bad.

Anyway, Jo lynn went with us to J8 and we watched Lust, Caution. I think I'll have nightmares tonight. There were some things which I was quite, repulsed by. Oh well. What to do? I was unceremoniously roped into this situation.

Why does a person like a particular thing over another?

Mel's here!

2007-10-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

HELLO! This is meltee here guest blogging (self-invitation) on Yt's wonderful blog.

On my left, Yt's trying to beat her sister in her handphone games

On my right are my other awesome pw mates (Yi Hoong & Tis) editing the dreadful Written Report.

Don't ask why I'm guest blogging.

I'm going to change Yt's template so she'll get a shock when she sees a blog.

Don't worry Yt, I saved a copy of your original html ;)
And I chose the template based on your blog's name "hot chocolate during winter"

I think Tis took this unglam picture of us =D

We look terribly gross.

2007-10-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

Dancing by Elisa

Let the drummer kick

Feel the music.

the apogee of my life or..

2007-10-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

"hello"
"hi"
"never see you online often"
"yeah"
"how's school?"
"ok"
"must study hard"
"I know"
"feeling stressed lately?"
"no."

...and this goes on and on and on, and people wonder why I always appear offline. I don't go online to waste my time on awkward conversations which is one-sided mainly, and honestly, I have nothing to say to the other person.

Nanny diaries was alright, but 15mins into the show, I realized I read the bloody book before. Although its bad to stereotype, but most show that are from a storybook is never quite as good. And this show is one example. Perhaps because I knew what was going on, I didn't even shed a tear during the sad scene. Sad. I think I would've enjoyed the show much more if I didn't knew the plot. There was one funny thing though, I thought the guy chasing Scarlett said "... to grow live fish" and started laughing to myself, then Lou (who was sitting beside me) was sort of squealing with joy, and said she wanted that too. This led to me=confused and after a while, I realized that what he said was to grill live fish. (wow. what an improvement) I don't really know about grilling live fish, for even though I'm not vegetarian and all, but dumping a fish (live one mind you) on top of a barbeque pit is not something I fancy doing. Those poor tai tai's, tou fu ice-cream?!?! Oohh, they're missing out on a hell lot of good stuff.
All in all though, it was quite fun, the company was great too (mel, lou, rayshio) but now that I'm back home, I'm quite bored which is why I'm wasting my time here.

After spending time (esp. with mel) I realized how MIA I've been. Why is it that when new friendships are formed, the old ones are left behind? Is it terribly selfish of me to want both?
Too much on sad stuff, I guess I can't really help what's going on in my life (how ironic) but... on to better stuff.

2 days to end of THE DREADED. THE DISGUSTING. PROMOS!!!!!

Am I happy or what.

Even though my promos ended last week, I still have Chem SPA...but lets not spoil the mood.

promos are ending. promos are ending. promos are ending.

as we sat by the roadside, under the tree
laughing with close friends
pearly white teeth, sparkling eyes
a sense of humour and modesty
you once brought me laughter
yet now you brought me tears
I can't forget the laughter,
nor I the tears
Perhaps in the future
I am able to think of you
without dealing with this ache
then maybe
i'll forget about the tears
and only remember the laughter

To my friend

2007-09-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

Life is really very precious.

I remember the time when I lived in Italy, playing with my friends,

Max, Antoine, Filippo, Carlotta, Giulio, Sonia, Margherita, Elisa, Gianluca, Nicolo, Matteo, Pete... and Eiki. We had so much fun. We were young, still naive (or at least I was)

I remember the shock when Mr G. told us that Eiki was diagnosed with cancer. I was just shocked. I really really believed that he was going to get better, not knowing the truth about cancer back then. Just a few months ago, Eiki and I had a short conversation on msn, just exchanging greetings with each other.

Just now, I opened my mail and saw one from Filippo, and I cried.

I am still crying now, while writing this post. Although I hate crying, but tears are not something to be ashamed of. I wish, that I could've seen him again. I remember we used to go on field trips together, and he'll teach me some Jap. I wish for so many things but I guess they'll never come true. Ever.

So if you have the time, go and read this post http://fipi90.blog.com/ and please treasure the people around you. Take the chance and get to know them better, for we never know when they'll just disappear from your eyes.

Take care Eiki.

Rest in peace.

2007-09-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Just a little shout out:

ARGH. PROMOS!

the end. of my rant.

I feel happy!

2007-09-10T01:30:00.000+08:00

Whoopee!
Although this may seem really trivial, insignificant and maybe even downright silly, I am super happy because I finally successfully finished the minesweeper game. After so many years of trying and stupid me didn't even realize that the numbers meant the number of bombs present, the smiley face with the sunglasses has finally appeared. However, to commemorate this marvelous occasion so that I will remember it, I can only cease work and sleep now. afterall its 1:30 in the morning already. Work can commence demain.

Bon Nuit!

2007-08-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

To all the people that have had to put up with me..

Apologize-One Republic

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

2007-08-21T14:40:00.000+08:00

I'm bored.
This is obvious since I'm in the computer lab for GP and I'm writing in this stupid place.

The question of the day is : Do you agree that learning in the virtual classroom can never be as effective as in the traditional one?

Math test was horrible. Because I was writing (my name) after the teacher said 'Pen's Down!' I was scolded. However, I don't blame the teacher for he's just doing his job afterall.

But it didn't help to bring my spirits up.

However, there are some good points to note! I passed Chem test with flying colours!! This is an uber duper humongous jump from my dismal failing grade the previous one.
PLUS
I feel ridiculously giddy about my upcoming dinner tonight.

Gha is leaving for Norway tonight. No more chicken gha, only fish. (Chicken is her favourite meat dish)
I'm experiencing conflicting emotions about it. I'm so proud and glad for her, but also sad. (Gha! take me with you!)

Oh well.

Nat. If I admit myself to IMH, you know who to hunt down. My mental stability is being threatened by the constant presence of THE BIRD. The big YELLOW bird.
Someone save me!

I think I shall go back on writing the advantages and disadvantages of the virtual classroom.

My (current) favourite word: harridan

... Its 5 weeks to Promos

2007-08-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

Give me a D!
Give me an E!
Give me a P!
Give me a R and E!
Give me a double S!
Give me an I! N! G!

What do you get?

DEPRESSING!

...

I'm a sadist.

I can't do open day because of *cough*, but I have to be at practice anyway.
Oh. And i'm a horrible person who destroys a 'piece of art' created by my friend. Who probably spent ages doing it. I'm really sorry. It wasn't intentional.

Today was eventful. I forgot all my steps. I made people run round the track as punishment (I'm sorry guys. I had no choice)I made people miss appointments. I have math remedial this friday from 7pm-9pm. I messed up my life with one silly thing I did, making it more complicated. I dozed off in chem class... and the list goes on.

I'M SORRY ABOUT THE MISSING THING AND THE RUNNING THING BUT FOR THE REST...

WHO CARES

I ate 2 slices of wonderful chocolate cake donated from huilin with chocolate milk. I found someone who understands how I feel in school and about my close friends. I learned that procrastination is a sin but I keep doing it (haha! isn't it funny)My sister and I told each other silly jokes. My dad is a wonderful listener.

Oh happy day.

I want to spend Christmas far away from this place. A place where its not a commercialized event.

Why am I thinking about Christmas?

You're a stranger in my eyes

2007-08-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

Saw some videos just minutes ago and I was really taken with the performance. I really wanted to try a few of the moves, but its too late. I really need practice.

I'm utterly horrible.

I should've been studying and I'm thinking about dance?!
If my parents' knew they'd kill me.
Especially since I really should be asleep now since I got to wake up at 7am tomorrow. Or today looking at the time...
Plus the fact that I made a promise to myself to improve my grades...

Cross my heart and swear that tomorrow will be the day to 'redeem' myself for not doing enough work today. I've only finished PW, a little history and economics since the short break started, plus dance stuff but is that really considered work?

National Day has ended.
Had to dance Rhapsody in school and it was terrifying! I had around a week plus to practice plus it was contemporary. Thanks so much to Reg, Shining, Huiting, Chu Yun, Serene, Amanda, Mildred for helping me so much. I hope I didn't make any screw ups. Haha! It was really fun though!

After the performance, Mr Gn treated the girls of SYF Opening Ceremony to lunch at Fish & Co. The portion of food was huge and ate till I was bloated - literally. Since I don't take seafood that well, I merely ordered... Fish and Chips. Plus a drink which I shared with Jer. Plus dessert which was a chocolate cake with hot fudge.
Thinking of it just makes me feel really really full.

Anyway, I shall sleep on the dance moves, and hopefully remember that after Promos.
PROMOS is evil. But necessary I guess. So, I digress.

Inside joke: Its Ma-ri-hua-na. Not Ma-ri-ju-a-na! (we were guessing the pronunciation)

La di da di da

Western Dance is gonna have a sweater! And because of that I have to use surveymonkey.com for the first time.
Learning things, SOMETIMES, may be kind of fun!

NDP

2007-08-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

"Let's take a little trip to Singapore Town, in a Singapore city bus! To see Collyer Quay and Raffles Place, the Esplanade and all of us.."

National Day is coming!!! Went to see the preview @ Marina Bay thanks to Mr Gn for giving me tickets and the rest of the dancers who performed at SYF Opening Ceremony. During the show, I felt a sudden gush of patriotism to Singapore. Serious. However, my sister so kindly said that I was being brainwashed. Oh well.

I feel disappointment however, when I see that the not all the people in Singapore are putting up our National flag. I remember how excited I get in the past, just to put up the flag, always fighting with my sisters to see who would get the honour of doing it. I remember walking past the hdb flats and look in amazement at the rows and rows of Singapore flags, and it was spectacular. Sadly, when I look upon the hdb flats now, less than half of the owners put up the national flag, depriving me of one of simple pleasures however weird it may be.

Anyway, Chanel is love. Doing PW on Chanel is so much fun! This has to credited greatly to my wonderful wonderful team members - mel, yi hoong, tis.

Its one of the bright spots in school life for...

6 WEEKS TO PROMOS!

School's just full of studying, eating and dancing.

I've been credited to being able to choreograph. Haha. That somehow is really hilarious. All I did was some minor thing for the dance for IPerform , WHICH WAS CANCELLED.

Jeez. Segregation between the IP's and Mainstream? What bullshit. I don't think so. IP3 During IP1 and 2, we're 2 years younger. Of course we have to be treated a bit differently. JC life and Secondary life cannot be compared! But I digress. Anyway, close friends of mine in the mainstream do not think there's any segregation. So there.

[this is what I feel, and I am entitled to my own opinion]

Now to the topic I love.

I had wonderful Spaghetti with Pork Chop today, which led to a feeling of nostalgia when I lived in Italy.

And also,

I learned how to make tang yuan from scratch from my grandma!

Now I can make it whenever I feel like eating!

I am in awe of my grandmother, who cooks super well.

My younger sister and my mum just tried to crack an egg by squeezing it. Both came upstairs laughing themselves silly due to their failed attempts. They are just weak. Hahaha. My dad tried it after persuasion from my younger sis and he cracked it! However, the icky 'juices' have splattered all over the kitchen and my dad is currently cleaning them up. Hahaha!

{Currently listening to Croatian Rhapsody by Maksim}

Weird?

2007-07-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure whether I'm weird or what.
People around me are so hyped up about the new Harry Potter book that arrived in Singapore today, apparently at 7:01am. However, due to us having an oral presentation workshop in school, few of my friends were griping on how they couldn't start reading the book, and moaning when they saw others with the new book at hand, reading it during the breaks during the OP workshop.
This made me ponder about my utter indifference to the book. Why do I feel this way?
Is it because of the fact that I kind of disliked the angst turn in the series starting from book 4/5 (I don't like angst by the way, I think its quite depressing. Life is already stressful. Why add more stress to it by reading these kind of books?) Or maybe due that I don't want Ron and Hermione to get together (those two quarrel like nobody's business. How do you have a lasting relationship like that?) Or that deaths are multiplying like how insects breed? Perhaps in my household with so many people, one book passed around will take ages to reach me, and there's not really a point in buying another book, therefore I feel nothing.

I have no idea. However, if I recall correctly, even when the first book was out years ago, I was not as big a fan of it as my elder sister, and now, even she does not anticipate the book.

DESPITE ALL OF THIS

I think its utterly UTTERLY horrible how people give spoilers. I DON'T WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! Even if I read the book months from now, don't tell me anything from now till then!

THIS IS THE REASON WHY EVEN JADE IS BUYING THIS BOOK WHEN ITS JUST RELEASED.

BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS RUINED WHEN PEOPLE AROUND JUST TELL THE ENTIRE STORY WHEN YOU JUST WANT TO FIND IT OUT YOURSELF. IN YOUR OWN TIME.

Note: This means. Don't tell me anything. Not even a single nitty-gritty detail about it.
Don't spoil the book for me.

Now on to happier stuff.

Western Dance to me now means a whole new world of things. Things that I've never known before. Reg and Jer owes me Ice-cream!!
During CCA now, I get to know so much more things. Information that I used to be oblivious too. Through this process, I am so thankful for the support of my friends, specially Tis and Eesha. Even though I can't really express how grateful I am for them, at least I hope that they know.
IPerform, and IP concert is coming up. Rushing through choreography, lack of practices and people not coming for them, I really really hope that everything will turn out fantabulous. Even if it means slogging doubly hard so that it'll reach a high standard. Because of this performance, I learned how to mix music! For which, I am so proud of myself, since I'm quite a 'noob' at IT stuff. But i did it through trial and error, for which I want to jump around with glee except its quite late and my parents are already asleep.

HMUN. To go or not to go?

Tell me again

2007-07-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

IPerform is coming, and I do hope that we are able to put up a good show.
Cheese = good?

I am quite disgusted with people writing too mushy stuff on their blogs. Both genders alike. Its just... irks me a bit, for showing how you feel about someone is supposed to be intimate right? Not to moan/gush/apologize/etc. to the public. I mean, can't you do it to his/her face?
Or maybe I'm just cynical.

My mum's finally back from Austrailia! My fridge has finally woken from its previous slumber for its filled with goodies of all sorts from my mum and my aunt, who just recently came back from the US.
However, its quite sad that I can't open everything at once, but to stare at the wonderful packaging of snacks, and keep wondering whats inside.

People are all commenting about Common Tests so I shan't. Its such a depressing thing to write about tests, and results, and exams and the list goes on and on. I have decided that grinding one's teeth or whooping with joy are insensitive actions.

Elections are coming up and being anxious is an understatement.
Therefore I shall ignore this topic to focus on happier stuff like:

The ARCTIC EIGHT ice cream that Reg, Shining and I shared in Cine. Oh. What a wonderful trip. With 8 different flavours in a huge bowl with mountains of topping. Isn't it simply lovely?

2007-07-07T16:43:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling a bit tired ad confused, so I decided to do something mind numbing. Hence, I'm here writing.

As June holidays rolled past, and Common Tests are over, Enrichment week started.
Its supposed to be fun, and it is, yesterday going to Fuji Ice Palace to skate, and with the help of my friends and the teacher, I learned how to skate backwards and turn.
Finally watched Transformers, and I think the show was quite cool, except that I don't really like the guy in the show. Oh well. And then, lauren and I decided that we are weird people. Haha. Finished a whole box of popcorn like 5 mins into the show.

However, because of the news from Zhirong, which led to my mood now. I do hope that he's coping well, although I know he will be. I hope his father will rest in peace.

--

For those who are not directly involved in my life currently, I have chopped off my hair just before the start of the term. Mer and Lou didn't even recognize me! It was really funny since I was just sitting beside them. Haha!

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IPerform is coming! Yay!

Laughs. Whose Line is it Anyway? Huh?

2007-06-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

I figured that some laughs are in severe need in times of stress like this before the common tests. Thanks to my sister for showing me these videos and making me feel like smiling while mugging for math.
Please watch them. You won't regret it!

Whose Line is it Anyway - Lets Make A Date (1)

Whose Line is it Anyway - Lets Make A Date (2)

Whose Line is it Anyway - Superheroes (1)

Whose Line is it Anyway - Superheroes (2)

Hope you enjoyed it!

Random music videos I've stumbled upon while listening to music when mugging

2007-06-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

SMUN 2007

2007-06-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

From the 5-8 June, I was at NUS Eusoff Hall, participating in Singapore Model United Nations (SMUN) 2007, with Mel, Shihui, Gha, Peixin, Bingxin, Huijun, Gerard, Jem, Andrew etc. NJ people!
Part of the Historical General Assembly, Mel and I represented the Federal Republic of Germany, discussing about the crisis of Vietnam's invasion of Kampuchea!

However, despite how fun the debate was, with the whole Soviet bloc walking out and then gracing the front page of the UN Torch (a newsletter), the most fun event was the starting of the FAM! The Food Aligned Movement for people who kept munching on snacks and thinking about food almost all the time!
Consisting of delegates from Angola (Shihui, Peixin), United Arab Emirates (Bryan!), Italy (Dear Jerrick), Kenya (Victor), Venezuela (Sophia) and of course Mel and I. We went out of the conference to the toilet, but soon met up with each other to steal GUMMY SWEETS (Haribo) before entering the discussion room again. And of course, we went to eat supper together, tea break together etc.
FAM is so superb.

UAE is wonderful! Cheryl from Poland too! Mel, them and I had a mugging session together late at night, while the rest were 'Polar Bear', which we joined later till 2 am.

There were loads of funny characters like Myanmar, Sri Lanka and more, which made our sessions so happening.

SMUN was wonderful, despite inevitable hiccups, so I guess this must mean I need to study harder, so my results are good enough that its safe to go next year. Maybe to NTU MUN, or HMUN (I hope!)

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Streetfest tomorrow!!!!!!

ramblings

2007-06-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

I have just realized that counting sheep to cure insomnia is total lie. I counted up to sheep 320+ last night( or morning since it was like 12+), and it did not make me feel sleepy at all. Rather, it made me more alert as I had to make sure I was counting in sequence, for I realized I went 28, 29, 40, 41... Maybe I can't sleep because I had taken a 3 hr + nap in the afternoon, same as mel, who sms-ed me while I was busily counting sheep in bed.
Just realized that I may be taking my common tests a full week before the rest due to my participation in the SYF Opening Ceremony, which will be held during the week for the CTs.
One week less for studying.
Crap.
I need all my free time to study math, since it is my weakest subject.
I hate numbers.
Except, maybe money.
just kidding. I hate counting money too.

SMUN. Streetfest. SYF Opening Ceremony. PW. Math VA. Common Tests.

I am rather confused for streetfest. I keep changing genders. Sometimes I'm dancing the guys' part, and at times I'm not, so during practices I just stand there like some blur bimbo, forgive the pun.

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Went to watch Reverie III, a dance concert organized by TJC to support Alex! Alex had some thick metal chain, which was so funny! I think that their lighting was fabulous. It added so much feel to the dances. After the show, I was starving so went out with Wanzhen, JiaTeng, Calvin, Rachel to eat!! After eating and talking, it was way past my curfew so I had to cab home so as to not make my grandma worry/get mad at me.
I AM AGAINST TAKING TAXIS.
UNTIL MAYBE I START WORKING.
I am so broke.

News:
1. Gladys turns 17!
2. I have the permission to bring my younger sis to the movies!
3. Not watched TV for the past few days.

ARISTAL 2007!

2007-05-27T01:01:00.000+08:00

ARISTAL IS OVER!

Had loads of fun, although tis and I were screwed during tech run because we only ran in when we heard the song playing and everybody was dancing already!
Pictures were taken (jiayi better delete the photos) and there were times for sleeping and eating, it is another experience that I'll not forget.
Saw many people like gha, shihui, eric, dot, wuduo, cat, and many many more people. You know, I think this is what I like about aristal. It gives me the opportunity to meet up with people that I don't see much anymore, and since I don't go out with people often (actually, practically never), I am so happy!(especially seeing Cherry!!!)
I know great people. Thanks for the flowers, but to me, just being there meant so much already. I am really touched, and ... shit. I don't know how to say this, but you know what I mean.

To a few people,
1. Tisiana, for being my rock
2. WEI ZONG IS BACK!!!!!
3. Thanks Chii Tarng, for the flowers, I really didn't expect it.
4. Wanzhen, loved the cake!! But what about my Pandan cake?
5. Peter Gn's item people (for putting up with my lousiness)
6. Juniors' Item people, for all the hard work we put in
7. Danceworks people, THE LAST TIME WE'RE DOING THIS DANCE! (i think)
8. j.s., for calling me while I was bathing to apologize for his absence. Its so funny!
9. To all the ip3 people, we were so crazy!
10. To the person who chose the finale song. Really damn cool! hahaha!

List of people I want to murder/injure etc.

1. TAN WEI LIANG for calling me that. (better not call me that again, its not true)
2. Seah Gim Lim for teasing me
3. The junior dancers, for you know what.
4. Tis, for complaining about her stomach (which is not there..)
5. (maybe) Jiayi, if he doesn't delete the photos in his camera.

Send me the photos of Aristal! So I can Remember.

26th May, 2007
A day full of surprises

westerndance!!!!

2007-05-23T14:05:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary Dad & Mum!

Happy Birthday Grandma!!

love you all loads

3 DAYS TO ARISTAL

FOOD

2007-05-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

Looks damn nice right?

This is where the cast + director of Parentcraft went to eat last Sunday.
Even thinking about it now makes me super hungry, and I just ate a bowl of noodles, a coconut bun, an eclair, a slice of pandan cake, and a Malay kueh for dinner.
Played funny games, then after eating, went for dessert at some Japanese restaurant place. The waiters were all staring at us for staying so long just to share 3 different desserts. My gosh. Hahaha.

Anyway, decided to write about this because I was thinking of Drama, which led to food, which led to ba gua and fries, which led to this.
Random I am not. It is just interconnected.

Dance practice is tiring, but fulfilling.

Which, brings me to the 4 hour long sex education talk we had today.
Ben Chua wrote really weird things. We had to write what we thought about true love, and one of the things he wrote was "A toe-curling, *something*, explosive orgasm with a lagerte (Triumph International) model..." Everyone was laughing at how disgusting that was, especially writing it in front of the volunteers from the Fei Yue Community Service/Centre(?), but they were a really good sport.
Quite fun, except that I was really tired (as usual), because of dance practice yesterday. Had full dress, and changing 3 different sets of costume, hairstyle and makeup is no easy feat. Don't know how I'm going to be able to cope on Saturday.

4 DAYS TO ARISTAL

Aristal logo 2006

Things to Do

2007-05-21T23:44:00.001+08:00

HUGE.

GINORMOUS.

GIGANTIC.

COCKROACH.

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Things to do:

Economics:
1. VA
2. Tutorial
3. File

History
1. SEA - 6 essays
2. International - 3 essays
3. File

Chemistry
1. All tutorials

Math
1. Tutorials plus assignments. All.

Dance
1. Practice tomorrow 330-445, 5-8
2. Practice Wednesday
3. Tech Run/ Full dress on Thurs (afternoon)
4. Saturday, 8am @ Ngee Ann Poly. Tech Run/ Full dress
5. Saturday night - ARISTAL

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Traumatised. Flat?

Just kill me now

Comprain? Complain? Comprain?

2007-05-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'm just exhausted, but I need to 'moan' a bit.
Or, as mel says, comprain

Sex Talk for 4 HOURS!!!

MATH!
ECONS!
HISTORY!
CHEMISTRY!
GP!

DANCE!

...

ok. that's all to complain about.

night to myself, after I finish econs.

Shows

2007-05-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

DRAMAFEST TICKETS

$5 ONLY

19 MAY

7:30PM

LT1

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PARENTCRAFT!!!!

For all who is concerned. Dramafest is THIS SATURDAY. And if you've nothing else better to do, come watch us be sissy, bimbo, and all manly. I assure you that you will laugh like crazy.
At least for my play.

ohhhh. my image is ruined!!

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ARISTAL - NJC DANCE NIGHT

$12/$15

26 MAY

NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC CONVENTION CENTRE

TIME TBC

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ARISTAL RULES.

Why?

2007-05-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

The unavoidable has happened. Again.

Another friendship about to become lost.

Due to the same reasons. Again.

I can feel this ending cannonballing towards this friendship. Yet, I cannot do a thing.

All I can do, is await silently, for the same fate. Again.

Is it because of my indecisiveness.

Or my way of thinking?

I hate myself and hate this unavoidable ending.

dwjn

2007-05-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

SUPER ANNOYING.

MR GN'S DANCE ARE DURING COMMMON TESTS!

Anyway, today was the showcase for Aristal'07

I screwed up as right after danceworks, I sort of became 'incapacitated'. Thanks so much to Tis, Reg, and many others who helped me find Panadol and medicated oil, and even hot water.

I should write a book, named "The Misadventures of a Girl"...

I really hope that my grimace of a smile, especially for Mr Gn's item, and steps were not too screwed up because of that..

I was so happy dancing for Junior's item! And I didn't laugh while doing pairwork with Chii Tarng!!!
I was even happier dancing for Danceworks! Not sure why though, since I thought I as quite tired of the dance, but APPARENTLY NOT.

BUT,
all's well that ends well.

I SHALL NOW STUDY HISTORY.

2007-05-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

PARENTCRAFT PRACTICE SESSIONS ARE SUPER SUPER HILARIOUS.

2007-05-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

In light of my impending History Essay, Position Paper, and Math Tests, Lectures and Tutorials, this is what keeps me from going crazy.

i thought you said forever over and over. says:lol

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:yeah

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:v shagged

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:may e bedbugs bite

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:..........

i thought you said forever over and over. says:.. .. ...

i thought you said forever over and over. says:bedbugs ur head

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:i didn't need to know that

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:more like u ll have them.i thought you said forever over and over. says:bleh

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:BLEURGH

.i thought you said forever over and over. says: my beautiful bed is bug free. not like urs bleh

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:I JUST CHANGED MY BED COVER!

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:HAHAHAHA

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:AND YOUR BED NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS MINE

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:no lor

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:mine better n confirm no bedbugs

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:PLEASE

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:YOURS IS LIKE SUPER GROSS

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:or lices

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:WHO KNOWS WHAT YOU DO THERE

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:its the floor la.

i thought you said forever over and over. says:bleh

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:how to have bedbugs.

i thought you said forever over and over. says:bleh

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:YOU THINK BEDBUGS CANNOT CRAWL AH?

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:all die le

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:L

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:lol

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:all they r non existence in the first place

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:YOU KNOW, THERE'S A REASON WHY THERE'S A SAYING THAT BOYS ARE BLIND

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:more like they hide in ur hair

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:no lor

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:PLEASE

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:im v normal

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:I WASH MY HAIR TWICE EVERYDAY

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:oh wow

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:still can have lor

don't bother unless it is a matter of life and death says:YOURS HAVE MORE CHANCE

.i thought you said forever over and over. says:n not like i dun wash my hair twice a day

....

weird random convo with zhirong, which started about me asking for math

So so happy today! J1's item finally doing well! I'm so happy!!!!! And we had a lot of fun taking random pictures. Must think of different sushis to make for dance! More wasabi the better! Hahaha!

WE MUST PERFORM IN ARISTAL.

2007-05-03T13:07:00.000+08:00

Have I ever mentioned that I have great friends??

RANTS

2007-04-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: I am just being emotional, or well, just needed to let some things out. So don't bother to continue reading if, well, you don't want to know certain things about ol' me, or if you don't want to read a stupid emo post. Maybe i should dedicate this to the person who taught me the word 'emo'.

I just realized that I have a really bad inferiority complex. People may say that I am confident of myself and all especially when I'm having cca, but seriously its just a facade.

It took me two years to realize that I can dance passably well. My IP1 and 2 years in dance was not particularly fantastic. Whatever dance I attempted had a lot of parts which needed correcting, and my seniors would kindly teach me to make my steps better, yet none of their coaching seemed to be of much use as I still did not improve. No one imagine how I felt being left out of so many things that required the skill and technique, which I did not have. As my self-confidence went to a new low, my inferiority complex kicks in.

Having two sisters with amazing track records, I always felt useless. It didn't help that with my personality, this did not spur me on to work harder, but I actually accepted the fact that I could never measure up to them(which is stupid, but it still happened.) But then again, this is nobody's fault but my own.

Anyway, i'm diverting from the topic. Maybe I may have certain parts of me which is 'good', but they were never important. Important as in to my future. My academics are average, or actually, maybe even below average looking at my level. I make excuses (which again, I know is incredibly stupid) time and time again, and I just continuing being lazy and just continue doing what I like.

Apparently, my mum figures that I place my happiness above everything else. If I had to do something that I hated, despite it being vital for me to do, I would do something that made me happy. Again, I'm being incredibly idiotic for I'm just keep ranting on and on and i don't bloody change anything. Wait. I change, but too little and too slow.

My friends surrounding me in the past used to spur me to study, but now, I'm always with bruce and ha. They are fun to be with, but Ha is a scholar. She likes studying. As in she really is happy just doing her work! Her mugging is always way ahead of me. And then bruce. Big words but not much action. Even though he is helpful, but he doesn't motivate me to study. He actually makes me NOT want to study, so that he won't try to help me with the wrong information, which makes me more confused then ever.

But then again, I'm diverting from the topic. I was talking about cca. The J1's item has to be done by the showcase and I'm really worried. I don't know what I can do to help. I'm useless. Despite being nicknamed the 'sharpener' by Wanzhen, I don't do much. But I really hope that this act is able to get together so that it will not be scrapped from aristal.

By the way, ARISTAL IS COMING

All this events and more kind of caused me to sink to this emotional and depressing state, and I have decided that I will try to change. Slowly, but surely. PLUS, I will get a bloody A for Math in A-levels, so the math make-up lessons that I have (which makes me end school like at 1830) will not be a waste of my time.

Want to place a bet?

I will and I can. And I'll do it the way I practiced like 'hell' for dance just to improve. No one can understand the sadness I felt. No one can really understand how much I tried. But I know, and that is all that matters to me. I've decided not to be affected by what is going on around me and just do everything I'm tasked with and more, WELL.

The End.

Western Dance

2007-04-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

JC syf is over!

Anxiously awaiting results for both IP and JC categories tomorrow. Even though I'm not involved in either, I feel super nervous! What if I was actually dancing? Maybe I would faint from sheer nervousness.

Today, slacked so much when Chii Tarng and I were supposed to do a choreo for the ending. Could have ended much earlier, but everyone was crazy after SYF!

Courtesy of gettyimages.com

Weird things that happen in Dance Studio 2 after SYF:

1. Wenhao and ZhangYun rolling on the floor whenever this song went 'rolling rolling rolling...'
2. Wenhao trying to go to a ballet jump, the one that looks like a split in mid-air right in front of our faces
3. Ryan, ZhangYun and Wenhao doing funny choreography to funny songs
4. Jia Teng, WeiZong and Wanzhen doing the egyptian like movement, standing one in front of the other.
5. Gim Lim trying to step on my foot, which led to Wanzhen, Jia Teng and him playing Pepsi-Cola, where the two guys ganged up on Wanzhen
6. Me and Wanzhen pointing fingers at those dancing, and pretending to whisper.
etc. etc.

I can't really write down in words how funny these little things were. I fell down laughing, if that is a good indication. I just realized that this is one of the times when I am really happy in WD. Just happy. Even though most times I am still alone, but I am just so happy, standing there and watching the other WD people. I think I can really just shout, 'WESTERN DANCE!!!' in front of many people, like I dared tis to say 'Woof' and Jia Teng to say 'Oink' really loudly while going to see the SYF performances.

Anyway, on this high note, I shall now continue studying for Econs, since we have a test on Friday...
Whoo!
Go Econs Go!

P.S I must learn to love a subject, so I'll feel glad studying for it

2007-04-24T16:48:00.000+08:00

I have stupid irritating things in my mouth.

I can't talk properly since I can't say 't', 'g', 'd', and 's'....

And mel and tis keeps laughing at me.

Life is just great mannn...

----

But, of course there were really funny things that happened today! Like tis and I having this 'jaw-dropping' look whenever mel says something. Which, turned to the 'eye-popping' look, which served as a rest for my poor jaws.
This thing happened while discussing for what to do our PW on, and our list have really cool ideas:
1. Person who invented the pad
2. Person who invented the bra
3. Marco Polo
4. Britney Spears
5. Elephant Man (I don't know who that is but...)
and many many more.

But of course, we decided not to do anyone of the above ideas, for we chose to do on....

...

don't tell you.
Its secret you know.
Hahahahahaha!
---

Taking this opportunity, I would like to thank Gim Lim for giving me a oreo cheesecake he made! I LOVE CAKES!
He saved me from being so deprived from pastry kind of cakes, since I just ate two slices of pandan cake and a slice of marble cake during teatime. But I have not eaten cheesecake for ages!!!! Therefore, Wei Liang is no longer my saviour. Gim Lim is. Yay!!!!

Gim Lim, Eesha and I went together to watch the IP syf performance, and I teared. I think I'm too emotional, but it was really touching. Seeing the hard work and effort put in the item not go to waste by presenting a great dance item. IP! Why is your dance so short!! I am really waiting to see this dance item during Aristal again!
Tomorrow is JC syf performance.. I am really really REALLY nervous. But I guess my feelings are nothing compared to those performing. I want... no. I need to scream to let all these suppressed feelings come out!
AHHHHHH

---

Had a heart to heart talk with my mum today, it made me understand quite a few things, and 'get in touch' with myself better, if that actually makes any sense.

I love this song. Listen to the lyrics.

I'm Mad

2007-04-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

Oh, I think the lady did protest too much
She wouldn't take the flower from my hand
She only saw the shadow of my circumstance
Perception can describe what makes a man

I didn't mean to interrupt your stride
But a rose was all I had to give
Sometimes beauty isn't recognised
When it contrasts with what you feel inside

Who's to say the darkened clouds must lead to rain
Who's to say the problems should just go away
Who's to point a finger at what's not understood

Because, we're all mad in our own way
Colours paint the grey away
Different people all the same
Each reveals the meaning
We're all mad in our own way
Fill the sky with different shades
Read the story on each page
Each reveals the meaning

Each reveals the meaning

Sometimes I think I over analyse
As if I cant control the time and place
Life isn't something you try on for size
You can't love without the give and take

Who's to say the darkened clouds must lead to rain
Who's to say the problems should just go away
Who's to point a finger at what's not understood

Because, we're all mad in our own way
Colours paint the grey away
Different people all the same
Each reveals the meaning
We're all mad in our own way
Fill the sky with different shades
Read the story on each page
Each reveals the meaning

We're all mad in our own way
Colours fade the grey away
Different people all the same
Each reveals the meaning
We're all mad in our own way
Fill the sky with different shades
Read the story on each page
Each reveals the meaning

Oh, each reveals the meaning
Oh oh oh yeah, oh

We're all mad in our own way
Colours fade the grey away
Different people all the same
Each reveals the meaning
We're all mad in our own way
Fill the sky with different shades
Read the story on each page
Each reveals the meaning

We're all mad in our own way
Colours paint the grey away
Different people all the same
Each reveals the meaning
We're all mad in our own way
Fill the sky with different shades
Read the story on each page
Each reveals the meaning

We're all mad

--Natasha Bedingfield (We're All Mad)

Bimbo and Himbos

2007-04-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

THIS IS A PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT:

TODAY IS BIMBO DAY!!!

THIS IS A DAY WHERE THE GIRLS MUST WHERE PINK AND SPEAK IN A TOTALLY IDIOTIC WAY.

AND THIS BIMBO-NESS MUST SPREAD ALL AROUND.

ACTIVE SUPPORTERS OF THIS DAY INCLUDE:

1. THE INFAMOUS GLAAAAADYYYYSSSSS TAN!!!!!
WITH A PINK HAIRBAND AND HAIR TIE, PLUS A 'TOTALLLY' BIMBO BAG, THIS GIRL HAS DEFINED BIMBO! HER ATTEMPTS TO SPEAK LIKE AN IDIOT AMAZINGLY WAS SO SUCCESSFUL. WITH HER WALK, HER TALK, AND HER LOOK, IT IS OF NO SURPRISE THAT SHE TOPS THIS LIST!

2. THE SEXY PERSON TISSSSIIAAANNA LOOOWWW
ALSO WITH HER PINK HAIRBAND, SHE HAS HOT PINK EARPHONES CONNECTED TO HER SONY ERICSSON MP3! NOT WITHSTANDING HER PINK NOKIA PHONE! THIS GIRL PARTICIPATES IN BIMBO DEBATES WITH GLAAAADYYYYSS AND CREATES MUCH FUN AND LAUGHTER!

3. THE HOT CANOUUU--EEIST, NATAAALIEEE KOOOHHH!!!!
SHE BORROWED A PINK +++++ GLITTERY HAIRBAND FROM DEAR TISSIANNA, AND SWITCHED HER ONE TO IT! IS THAT BIMBO OR BIMBO?!? HOWEVER, SINCE SHE DID NOT SPEAK IN THE 'BIMBO' WAY, IT IS SAD TO SAY THAT SHE CAN ONLY REMAIN AT SPOT NUMBER 3!!!

.......

If you can't see that I'm bored, then I have no idea how to convince that I am.
Today (or more accurately speaking yesterday) was speech day. Although this is not an ordinary school day, but it is not entirely special too.
However, what made this day so special to me was that I finally got to spend time with the dear '04 girls! We had so much fun, like mel and I being Tis' bodyguards, and 'escorting' her to her cubicle, locking the guys' out of our Civics venue, and NAT KILLING A TOAD/FROG.
Is there any other queries on why I miss IP???
Heck! I'm missing so many stupid, fun and lame stuff that actually made school life bearable...

Classes change as subject combinations differ, even the group of people I hang out with is different. Therefore, it is of no surprise when people say I'm different now.
Sadly, I've become a tad more vulgar, and seeing how I hit Lauren on the head because she used the f-word, shows how shocking this is. And I think I'm ruder(is there even such a word?!? sorry. not thinking straight now)... Its all Zhirong's fault. Curse him. Hahahahaha

Talking about Zhirong reminds me why I'm writing this at bloody 1+am, because I AM SUPPOSED TO DO MY CHEMISTRY PROJECT.
My group is so screwed... and I can't send the bloody thing!
I don't care. I'll try tomorrow or something.

Therefore, I shall end this by saying this little speech
In honour of Gladys' and my view on Speech Day:

Vote for me! Number 10001! Because the first and last numbers equals to 2! It takes 2 hands to clap, so for me to make some noise, I need your vote! I am passionate, and I'm willing to serve this school. I want to make NJ a better place! I want to be your voice! I'm even willing to give myself an analogy that totally makes no sense! I'll be your ez-link card. Something that will always be beside you. Helping you -- by paying your bus fare. I am fun-loving, and I go crazy over ice-cream! I absolutely LOVE gorging! So vote for me, candidate number 10001, for I, will make a difference in YOUR life.

P.S the above speech is not an insult to anyone specific, and details I wrote about myself may or may not be true. Its just a joke like thing, so if I offended anyone in particular, I am terribly sorry.

Records and books

2007-04-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

Weirdly enough, I feel accomplished.
Not because I finished the whole stack of work that I have on the side of my desk, but because I finished choreographing my part. Even though its like a really short part, but oh well!
I am so proud of mel, because of both Indian Dance fantastic SYF results (gold with honours + honourable mention!?), but also on her courage for her operation removing lumpo and beepo!!! I feel so honoured to have such a brave friend. How can I have such a brave friend when I'm so scared of the stupidest things like say, a beetle? .... nevermind. Don't answer that question.
Recently, or to be more precise just 5 hours ago (its 12:19am now), I have found something to motivate me to study more. To cut a long story short, I have to thank my dad for that. I shall therefore swear to cut my time surfing the net by half, and spend this precious amount of time doing something that will actually benefit me in the near future. PLUS, I shall stop daydreaming. Ok. Maybe the daydreaming part seems a tad bit unrealistic.. I'll try to not daydream so much.
Anyway, the reason why I am writing this in such an ungodly hour (because I have to wake up at 7am tomorrow.. or is it today?) is because I have to remember something. My highscore for solitaire is 8534!!!!!!!!!
It may not seem as an achievement for many, but it is the only time I broke the 8000 mark, so I DON'T CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK. hmph. Therefore, to be so kind as to not stop my euphoria, be happy for me. Thank you.

I shall now promote the book I am currently reading. Its title is, The Time Traveller's Wife. Basically the story is about this girl, who's husband suffers from some condition that makes his genetic clock reset itself periodically. This book is really moving, and it is worth the read.

Feeling Emotional

2007-04-02T17:56:00.000+08:00

I said I hated you. Sorry. It was horrible of me, and I know that no matter what you have done to piss me off, I should not have said that. I am really sorry. SYF is around the corner, and everyone is super busy. Jolynn asked me today why I didn't join syf. I realize that everyone around me are joining art groups to be into the syf, and looking at NJ's past standards, its not difficult to get a reasonable so called 'result. But then look past all of these awards and prizes and stupid things. Why join a cca if you don't really have any interest in it? I would rather join something I really really feel passionate about (despite the huge cliche because its true). But of course, if along the way, you really discover a passion for that particular activity that you're working then I think that joining the cca will definitely be worth it.
I was surfing the net and I so this really cool motorbike. Therefore, it shall be my desktop picture till I find something cooler!

Sometimes when time goes by, I really feel that I'm missing out on many things in life. Friends and events passes along like a breeze, no one really stopping to allow the other to catch up with them. I really hope that I do not make the same mistake I've been doing for every year of my past. Not keeping in contact with my friends.
I'm not a really sociable person, I don't take the initiative to start talking. I'm trying to change that. I really am.
To show my appreciation, I want to dedicate this song to 04. Especially to mel, gladd, nat, jolynn, tis, mer, celle, sam etc.

Though I have, sadly and pathetically, not watched Titanic, this is for you guys.
Thanks.

earth in my eyes

I am slacking

Make It Happen

No.1

To sum it all up

Arrivederci, Ci Vediamo a Dopo

With love, from...

Dedicated to Nala

Pigs

...

Club Med

Back from Bintan

I'm so glad it was us

It will NOT be the END

G*** shizz

Its not fair

Common what??

Oh the Horror

I'm so happy yeah

Good to be back

It will NOT be the END

More Crap

Fod Off

For The Sake of Fodding

That Time of The Year.. Again

You're Special

What Life?

Putting Things into Perspective

Giving Up

I have NO LIFE

Fodding My Life Away

What Should You Have Done After High School?

Dance

Rule the world

Not mugging... yet again

Two days in a row!

And still it doesn't end

CRAP

And here it comes again

Buon Natale

As the days goes on

Midnight feast

Questions

Flavours

We're too cool

BUTTSoff!

Silent Observer

C'est La Vie

...

My To-Do List!

ZOMG

Such great friends

Changing Times

Surprises

Thoughts

butts off

F.O.S

BUSY BUSY BUSY

FAM REUNITES!

Just for fun

A day not in school

Mel's here!

the apogee of my life or..

To my friend

I feel happy!

... Its 5 weeks to Promos

You're a stranger in my eyes

NDP

Weird?

Tell me again

Laughs. Whose Line is it Anyway? Huh?

Random music videos I've stumbled upon while listening to music when mugging

SMUN 2007

ramblings

ARISTAL 2007!

FOOD

Things to Do

Comprain? Complain? Comprain?

Shows

Why?